telekon
Arcanist
- Feb 5, 2025
- 441
it's been real... 2 years and it's been something. i feel like this website is a drug similar to alcohol or benzos.
i am probably not going to think seriously about killing myself for another 5 months until it gets cold again so i'm going to try my best to live and see what happens.
i am also 90% sure there is going to be some crazy disclosure/wwiii event happening soon so that gives me peace that the world is on the brink of real change. i am going to really try and make the effort for the next couple years. i am cutting off every single family member in my life... it's the only answer. every time i even think of one of them for a second it makes me think of suicide, but i've realized that i am okay if i can be away from them. i also think i am a victim of transits, like astrological shit happening in the universe because i have serious ups and downs that i thought was bipolar but now realize after studying a bit that there is a clear correlation with the shifting of the planets/stars. anyways, thank you for everything. you people are wonderful, beautiful, and deserve happiness.
i am probably not going to think seriously about killing myself for another 5 months until it gets cold again so i'm going to try my best to live and see what happens.
i am also 90% sure there is going to be some crazy disclosure/wwiii event happening soon so that gives me peace that the world is on the brink of real change. i am going to really try and make the effort for the next couple years. i am cutting off every single family member in my life... it's the only answer. every time i even think of one of them for a second it makes me think of suicide, but i've realized that i am okay if i can be away from them. i also think i am a victim of transits, like astrological shit happening in the universe because i have serious ups and downs that i thought was bipolar but now realize after studying a bit that there is a clear correlation with the shifting of the planets/stars. anyways, thank you for everything. you people are wonderful, beautiful, and deserve happiness.
I wrote this message from my grandma's house, got into a huge fight with my aunt maybe an hour later, left in a rage, was homeless for the whole month and am now back after 3 nights of rain. Now I'm trapped in a bedroom and I want to go out and eat but my aunt is there and I don't want to talk about it. fuuuuuck me.
