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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
351
i think im going to ctb in a day or so, for sure soon. fsh method. if i could get some comfort that would be nice, im having alot of feelings of guilt and like im doing something wrong, but i just want to stop suffering you know...love you all
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
Hi, I also wanna die soon by full hanging. I'm sorry that life brought you to this point where you just wanna die. I am also at that point and just wanna put the noose on my neck and stepp off from the ladder and finally die…
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
265
I'm sorry it's gotten to this point. I hope things turn out for the best - whatever that means. I am wishing you peace and rest. It's a difficult decision to make, and we will respect whatever you decide.
i just want to stop suffering you know

I know what you mean. Existence is exhausting and painful.
We love you too and I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.
 
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Kanoh

Student
Dec 31, 2024
109
Try not to rush and take your time for the decision to fully mature. Whenever you feel you are ready, I'm keeping you in my heart.
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

2036-01-10T08
Apr 10, 2025
2,203
if u feel uncertain... it is ok to defer CTB plans. We won't judge, dw.
 
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madwoman

madwoman

what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
613
Sending love. I do believe in people's choice and I'm suicidal myself but I do know things can get better even if it doesn't feel like it. It's really hard to suffer so much internally though. You aren't alone. I hope that you do some things you enjoy or brings some comfort to you. Wish I could take your pain away. šŸ«¶šŸ»
 
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Steph99

Student
Aug 29, 2025
101
Echo the comments that if you are unsure or otherwise not ready, plans can be postponed / shelved. Thinking of you ā¤ļø
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
702
If you are not feeling like it's not the time to goodbye, you don't have to force yourself to do that. Many of us still stay here for the same reason. You are not alone in this feeling. Whateve decision you take I hope you find what you're looking for:heart:
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,368
I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad, I am sending you much love and a warm hug šŸ«‚:heart:
 
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bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
395
Hope you find peace wheter you do it or not
 
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TheCallOfTheStars

TheCallOfTheStars

Member
Oct 29, 2025
51
Making such a big decision takes time. I get that it's going to be hard to make a decision, especially with the feelings of guilt and all, but it's really up to you what you wanna do.
Regardless, whatever choice you make, I hope you find peace :heart:
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,158
I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
I wish you peace in whatever decision you make.
 
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DeadInsideUnicorn

DeadInsideUnicorn

I'm my own worst enemy
Oct 24, 2025
18
Sending you love and virtual hugs. Hope you find peace.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
800
I want to wish you good luck šŸ’—
 
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copioushopelessness

Arcanist
Aug 27, 2025
445
Love you too Peewee
 
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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
351
thank you everyone your all so lovely, I am pretty sure I want to do it, thank you for making me feel not so alone
 
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