Goodbye and thank you SS-(Method- N)

[xLosthopex]

Hey, how's it going ? Can u cope with everything or is it to much of a burden rn ?

It's too much…. Having to put on a performance(literally) and brave face at work but forcing myself to get through it because I need the money to get more N. It's hard enough with all my physical illnesses/ailments due to my anorexia let alone the mental struggle
I think the worst part is that I feel like my 'safety net' is now gone, just having the N alone has been one of my greatest coping mechanisms the last while because I could just tell myself "if things get too much, I can just take it"(obviously, in my case at least, that has proven to be a lot more easier said than done) but even still as soon as I save enough money I'm gonna order again

 

[GreenMile]

N is an incredible coping mechanism, it makes a world of difference. That you've shared so much of your journey with it here is deeply appreciated and helped me so much in mine. Sorry for you pain, you sound like a really nice person, wish life wasn't like this.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

It's too much…. Having to put on a performance(literally) and brave face at work but forcing myself to get through it because I need the money to get more N. It's hard enough with all my physical illnesses/ailments due to my anorexia let alone the mental struggle
I think the worst part is that I feel like my 'safety net' is now gone, just having the N alone has been one of my greatest coping mechanisms the last while because I could just tell myself "if things get too much, I can just take it"(obviously, in my case at least, that has proven to be a lot more easier said than done) but even still as soon as I save enough money I'm gonna order again

That sounds rough. So I wish u the strength thats needed for the upcoming tasks and that it works out as planned.
Yeah having a way to quit is a pretty nice coping mechanism. And pls dont blame yourself for not doing it. Staying alive is actually the strongest feeling any living creature has. To overcome this desire to live it needs so much strength. So your not the one to blame for not doing it and maybe its the right thing that your still here. At least thats what Im trying to tell myself after my last attempt 2 weeks ago.
So the best of luck towards your strength so u can build up this financies to get your coping mechanism back.

 

[farewellboys]

Goodbye, hope you finally find peace in the void

 

[LansJ70]

Yes, you really are seriously fucked up. Your "insights" about OP's problems & behavior are the product of a dangerously feeble, toxic mind.

Yeah I made some comments designed to be helpful to her, but I've seen you twice now in this thread appointing yourself the moderator of the internet and jumping in to be her white knight protector, in your glimmering, shining armour on your trusty white steed.

You do actually realise don't you - that she isn't going to sleep with you.

Grow up sad sack.

 

[BottomlessPit]

Yeah I made some comments designed to be helpful to her, but I've seen you twice now in this thread appointing yourself the moderator of the internet and jumping in to be her white knight protector, in your glimmering, shining armour on your trusty white steed.

You do actually realise don't you - that she isn't going to sleep with you.

Grow up sad sack.

certified bruh moment

 

[BrokenArrow]

You do actually realise don't you - that she isn't going to sleep with you.

You know he's gay, right?

 

[LansJ70]

You know he's gay, right?

He probably thought she was a he then, there seemed to be a lot of calling people her he in the thread.

 

[greyhound]

It's too much…. Having to put on a performance(literally) and brave face at work but forcing myself to get through it because I need the money to get more N. It's hard enough with all my physical illnesses/ailments due to my anorexia let alone the mental struggle
I think the worst part is that I feel like my 'safety net' is now gone, just having the N alone has been one of my greatest coping mechanisms the last while because I could just tell myself "if things get too much, I can just take it"(obviously, in my case at least, that has proven to be a lot more easier said than done) but even still as soon as I save enough money I'm gonna order again

If you want to keep it for longer just look at the different options for preserving opened bottles of wine. Any one of them would basically put the N back into a state where it could last for years:

How to Store Open Wine so it Stays Fresh for a Long Time

Learn how to store open wine. Wine preservation techniques and systems can keep it fresh. You don't have to waste half the bottle.

www.mowinecellar.com

 

[checkouttime]

He probably thought she was a he then, there seemed to be a lot of calling people her he in the thread.

a few posts back they did actually point out that they were a she and not a he, so people did get mixed up your right

 

[Bullit]

Thru this whole drama I have been sure to only follow and not comment. Too easy to say something that someone doesn't like.
I'm glad you're ok! Good luck.
Now...exotic dancer,you say?

 

[OceanBlue]

I cried reading this, you're so awfully kind to your parents who brought you here to suffer like this.
I'm also sad there may be one less ara in this world, it's important work and your contribution is valued, I hope your community is supportive. I hope you make the best decision for yourself and I'm sorry some of the comments were insensitive.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

Yeah I made some comments designed to be helpful to her, but I've seen you twice now in this thread appointing yourself the moderator of the internet and jumping in to be her white knight protector, in your glimmering, shining armour on your trusty white steed.

You do actually realise don't you - that she isn't going to sleep with you.

Grow up sad sack.

You are a seriously insensitive prick. I'd call you a complete a-hole but it's not worth me being banned. And I do think you deserve to hear my honest opinion because you are talking down to OP and others while making wrongful assumptions that show how uninformed you are. The worst part is that you're digging in instead of realizing the error of your ways and apologizing.

Its funny... I read a post on here where you announced you're leaving b/c all the good / quality people are no longer here. Then why the heck are you back?? Noone is interested In this kind if crap especially on a suicide site. And YES I feel ok typing this to you b/c you obviously are not showing up as a vulnerable person; instead a hawty bougie prick.

If you're that wonderful of a person just leave or sit on the sidelines and act like you have the hometraining that you pretend to exhibit on this site.

 

[checkouttime]

You are a seriously insensitive prick. I'd call you a complete a-hole but it's not worth me being banned. And I do think you deserve to hear my honest opinion because you are talking down to OP and others while making wrongful assumptions that show how uninformed you are. The worst part is that you're digging in instead of realizing the error of your ways and apologizing.

Its funny... I read a post on here where you announced you're leaving b/c all the good / quality people are no longer here. Then why the heck are you back?? Noone is interested In this kind if crap especially on a suicide site. And YES I feel ok typing this to you b/c you obviously are not showing up as a vulnerable person; instead a hawty bougie prick.

If you're that wonderful of a person just leave or sit on the sidelines and act like you have the hometraining that you pretend to exhibit on this site.

I don't think calling someone an insensitive prick is the way to make someone else out as saying something wrong!! If people want to post goodbye threads and provide us with information, i'm sure they are open to being questioned about things. people should n't be so touchy when asked stuff. people want to know information as were meant to be helping each other. I think people will question people even more if everyone was so defensive every time they post something. people can't just be expected to believe what random strangers post on the internet and not question stuff. If people don't like this i think they are in the wrong place as thats what a forum is for.

your actually questioning this person on why they are being here and they have every right to stay leave or leave and its there choice, don't make it out like they have to leave. thats the same as saying to OP they should of taken the N because they opened it, which is not fair.

the way your replying isn't going to help things your just doing what your accusing the poster of doing. the fact is people are allowed to ask questions and that is what the forum is for, people shouldn't get upset when they are questioned. If you think a person is doing something wrong report it, and if the moderators think there is an issue i'm sure they will do something about it.

 

[xLosthopex]

Thru this whole drama I have been sure to only follow and not comment. Too easy to say something that someone doesn't like.
I'm glad you're ok! Good luck.
Now...exotic dancer,you say?

Yes

 

[motel rooms]

Yeah I made some comments designed to be helpful to her, but I've seen you twice now in this thread appointing yourself the moderator of the internet and jumping in to be her white knight protector

You called her "supposedly suicidal", "seriously fucked up" & accused her of "toying with other people's emotions while she plays her stupid games". Exactly what part of that was "designed to be helpful to her", you pathetic excuse for a human being?

@Symbiote I simply don't understand why this "person" didn't get banned. They clearly aren't sorry for what they did & their comments were even more hateful than the ones posted by @liverpoolfan, who was banned.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

You called her "supposedly suicidal", "seriously fucked up" & accused her of "toying with other people's emotions while she plays her stupid games". Exactly what part of that was "designed to be helpful to her", you pathetic excuse for a human being?

@Symbiote I simply don't understand why this "person" didn't get banned. They clearly aren't sorry for what they did & their comments were even more hateful than the ones posted by @liverpoolfan, who was banned.

Yeah, I looked at the SS rules and it says one can't disrespect. Hopefully they get theirs soon. Mods need to read the reports, read through the assine comments and then ban. This is just a big DUH.

 

[OceanBlue]

Yeah I made some comments designed to be helpful to her, but I've seen you twice now in this thread appointing yourself the moderator of the internet and jumping in to be her white knight protector, in your glimmering, shining armour on your trusty white steed.

You do actually realise don't you - that she isn't going to sleep with you.

Grow up sad sack.

Interesting how misogynists try to put down men who see women as people.

 

[checkouttime]

You called her "supposedly suicidal", "seriously fucked up" & accused her of "toying with other people's emotions while she plays her stupid games". Exactly what part of that was "designed to be helpful to her", you pathetic excuse for a human being?

@Symbiote I simply don't understand why this "person" didn't get banned. They clearly aren't sorry for what they did & their comments were even more hateful than the ones posted by @liverpoolfan, who was banned.

you deserve banning yourself for the tioxic stuff you are posting about another member, leave the moderating to the moderators and stop attacking people.

you've called the person feeble, toxic, seriously fucked up and now a pathetic excuse for a human being.

Yeah, I looked at the SS rules and it says one can't disrespect. Hopefully they get theirs soon. Mods need to read the reports, read through the assine comments and then ban. This is just a big DUH.

yeah and them calling a member

" feeble, toxic, seriously fucked up and now a pathetic excuse for a human being." is being really respectful. they were complaining about toxicity on the other thread then are doing exactly that themselves.

people need to stop thinking they are running this site, if they don't like stuff report it. if there not happy feel free to leave no1 is holding them here. I can see the toxic people need to get over themselves and let the site owners and mods run the site.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

you deserve banning yourself for the tioxic stuff you are posting about another member, leave the moderating to the moderators and stop attacking people.

you've called the person feeble, toxic, seriously fucked up and now a pathetic excuse for a human being.


yeah and them calling a member

" feeble, toxic, seriously fucked up and now a pathetic excuse for a human being." is being really respectful. they were complaining about toxicity on the other thread then are doing exactly that themselves.

people need to stop thinking they are running this site, if they don't like stuff report it. if there not happy feel free to leave no1 is holding them here. I can see the toxic people need to get over themselves and let the site owners and mods run the site.

Being angry about seeing someone bully and shit-ball someone's suicidal intentions is different than the straight up bizarre bully's comments. Unfortunately some aren't banned and continue to shoot out piles of utter shit. Anyway....people need to find better things to do than vomit bizarre hate.

Frankly this post should be locked. The person posting doesn't need to be alerted to this total bullshit. The post is over and finito. Ban the assholes who shitted on it. That's IT. I will not comment again as it's fucking boring and annoying.

 

[checkouttime]

Being angry about seeing someone bully and shit-ball someone's suicidal intentions is different than the straight up bizarre bully's comments. Unfortunately some aren't banned and continue to shoot out piles of utter shit. Anyway....people need to find better things to do than vomit bizarre hate.

Frankly this post should be locked. The person posting doesn't need to be alerted to this total bullshit. The post is over and finito. Ban the assholes who shitted on it. That's IT. I will not comment again as it's fucking boring and annoying.

2 wrongs don't make a right


Doesn't matter what they said, doesn't give people the right to attack others and sets a very shit example to others. people should stop thinking they are the ones who are in charge and get of their high horse, as they aren't.they should get over themselves, the moderators run the site not the members. if people don't like it the they should leave and stop whining on about how bad the sites run. there''s a report button and moderators to decide what right or wrong they run the site not the members

Its quite simple if you don't like something then don't put up with it, and thats just common sense.

the member who did something wrong has been banned. the member being attacked has done nothing wrong in the eyes of the mods or they would be banned .

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

2 wrongs don't make a right


Doesn't matter what they said, doesn't give people the right to attack others and sets a very shit example to others. people should stop thinking they are the ones who are in charge and get of their high horse, as they aren't.they should get over themselves, the moderators run the site not the members. if people don't like it the they should leave and stop whining on about how bad the sites run. there''s a report button and moderators to decide what right or wrong they run the site not the members

Its quite simple if you don't like something then don't put up with it, and thats just common sense.

the member who did something wrong has been banned. the member being attacked has done nothing wrong in the eyes of the mods or they would be banned .

While you are not officially abusive and bizarre you're attempting to tell me how to conduct myself on SS. If I see abhorent abusive, aggressive and dysfunctional comments I report and more than likely address the shittiness. That's my perogative. It seems like you're getting fixated on your annoyance that people won't do as you handle yourself on here. It's not my problem that you're irritated with how others respond to trolls. Trolls. I will press ignore now on you. No thanks.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I'm a bit surprised that some members thought it's okay to belittle someone for a very natural process in this thread. The survival instinct is a very strong biological mechanism and it can happen to all of us. In the last 3 years I've talked to so many suicidal people that could explain to me in a very rational and clear manner as to why they wanted to ctb, and in most cases it involved severe menal or physical suffering, yet they were still unable to leave due to a strong survival instinct. It even happened to me, back in 2019 when I tried to end it. I've wasted 400 dollars for checking into a hotel for no reason. I was absolutely crushed and devasated and I know exactly how OP felt so please, let's not judge people for failing attempts. It doesn't change anything about the validity of someones suicide ideation, period. And this isn't the right place to invalidate or play down the suicide ideation of other people in the first place. This kind of judgement contradicts the philosophy of this forum and it violates the trust people bring into this community when opening up about their feelings. Let's preserve a compassionate and empathic atmosphere. Please be kind to each other. Action against those who engaged in an insulting or degrading way towards OP has been taken.