Good morning sasu fam!

[anonymous2025]

Today I will be writing out my note, I just logged in now and have about 10 unread messages to view, if your one of those, I will get back to you in just a few. I plan to ctb later this evening or at the latest tomorrow. I have about 25 bottles of around 40mgs each of liquid methadone, and my SN. About 10 Meto (reglan) pills. This has been a long time coming and somehow this feels different from past times when I've tried unsuccessfully to ctb, partially due to my current method(s). This community has been great to me and I also want to return the favor by sharing my identity with all of you. So I will be scheduling an automatic future post in about 5 days with my Instgram/Facebook page information. I'm also going to post updates on here. I'm pretty nervous this time and have tried to find a partner in the mega threads to go with. I know it's risky anytime your meeting up with strangers but the fact is. I just haven't found anybody near my area which means it's all me now. I've been researching what a lethal dose of methadone is (which varies) due to tolerance levels. I plan to start taking Meto today and take about 140mgs methadone then shortly after the sn. (I'm open to any feedback on my regimen) I would really like to avoid drinking sn and just take a massive dose of mdone but I know that's risky too because if I don't take enough before going unconscious, il wake up. I'm still needing to decide exactly where I want to do this. My car, a cemetery, woods ect. Anyway I've got some work to do so I'll be back shortly. Also here's a few of my favorite songs if anybody wants to check them out.

Faded Alan walker_


Strangers_


Beso_


Ozuna_


Fantasia_


Pepas_


Gabriella_

 

[elenaboo25]

I hope you didn't get the idea of taking methadone from me. It is not my preferred method, and I would not recommend it. I am glad it is not your only plan. I wish you peace.

 

[anonymous2025]

I hope you didn't get the idea of taking methadone from me. It is not my preferred method, and I would not recommend it. I am glad it is not your only plan. I wish you peace.

Hey and nah. It's always been in the back of my mind though. If anything it will relax me enough to overcome si and take SN with it.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I honestly think that excessive amount of methadone will add uncontrolable variables. Anyway I'm really sorry you have come to this point and I hope you find the peace you are looking for no matter what you finally choose. Thank you for being a member of this community

 

[LostZombie]

Hey, I wish you luck this evening all that I ask is to make this day count. Go grab a meal from your favorite place (just for the morning pls don't eat much after that if you want the SN to be lethal) go drive at high speeds, gamble, just have some fun before you go to sleep tonight. I'm sorry it had to come to this, but I hope that these final few hours can bring you joy, and good luck.

Much Love!

 

[anonymous2025]

Hey, I wish you luck this evening all that I ask is to make this day count. Go grab a meal from your favorite place (just for the morning pls don't eat much after that if you want the SN to be lethal) go drive at high speeds, gamble, just have some fun before you go to sleep tonight. I'm sorry it had to come to this, but I hope that these final few hours can bring you joy, and good luck.

Much Love!

thank you for your great advice! I do massage therapy p.t and one of my regular clients I've known for 5 years bought dinner for me last night which he's never done before. The Chinese restaurant didn't have boneless spare ribs so we ordered firehouse subs. The hook and ladder is the best sub I've ever tasted. I also had a personal pepperoni pizza yesterday for lunch. The thing I will miss most is my cigarettes. I really enjoy smoking Marlboro lights.

 

[MissAbyss]

️ I wish you eternal peace ️

PS: I love your music taste.

 

[rozeske]

I wish you a peaceful journey, love and tranquility in whatever awaits.

 

[loakms8]

Bless you with a peaceful journey

 

[cloud;.]

I really do wish you a peaceful journey traveller <3

 

[darksouls]

good luck
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire

 

[socksnsandles]

thank you for your great advice! I do massage therapy p.t and one of my regular clients I've known for 5 years bought dinner for me last night which he's never done before. The Chinese restaurant didn't have boneless spare ribs so we ordered firehouse subs. The hook and ladder is the best sub I've ever tasted. I also had a personal pepperoni pizza yesterday for lunch. The thing I will miss most is my cigarettes. I really enjoy smoking Marlboro lights.

bro the hook and ladder from firehouse is fire. glad you experienced it before you ctb

 

[anonymous2025]

bro the hook and ladder from firehouse is fire. glad you experienced it before you ctb

Most definitely and thank you for your comment

good luck
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire

I definitely appreciate that. thank you

 

[ForestGhost]

Not sure if you went through with it but hope you're at peace wherever you're at now. I liked your presence here.

 

[Alexandra_]

Good luck to you. I hope you find what you're looking for

 

[Hangman.]

I hope you have found peace wherever you are now

 

[anonymous2025]

Hey guys. I'm still here. Had a hell of a ride though. Throughout the day on the 21st I kept taking methadone. I got up too about 280mg throughout the day, I blacked out about 4 times. Every time I kept waking up and falling back. My saliva got really thick and I felt nauseous but never through up probably because I was taking Meto to. I have SN and I know I've got to take it. I wished so bad that the methadone would have done it but it felt like a ceiling effect. Probably because I didn't take it all at once. I also got some very bad news in the mail and I just don't want to be here anymore. I'm terrified of taking SN. I don't know why, I have it all measured out and ready to go. I think I fear pain. I don't know but I do know it's got to be done. I'm still trying to recover from taking mdone and maybe I'll just take a small amount before taking SN. I need to get the courage too. If I don't, I know what's coming up in my life and there's no way I can handle it. I'm just resting in my car at the moment. I will definitely keep you all updated when I do finally take SN. I have until the first week in November really. But I don't want to wait that long.

 

[elenaboo25]

Hey guys. I'm still here. Had a hell of a ride though. Throughout the day on the 21st I kept taking methadone. I got up too about 280mg throughout the day, I blacked out about 4 times. Every time I kept waking up and falling back. My saliva got really thick and I felt nauseous but never through up probably because I was taking Meto to. I have SN and I know I've got to take it. I wished so bad that the methadone would have done it but it felt like a ceiling effect. Probably because I didn't take it all at once. I also got some very bad news in the mail and I just don't want to be here anymore. I'm terrified of taking SN. I don't know why, I have it all measured out and ready to go. I think I fear pain. I don't know but I do know it's got to be done. I'm still trying to recover from taking mdone and maybe I'll just take a small amount before taking SN. I need to get the courage too. If I don't, I know what's coming up in my life and there's no way I can handle it. I'm just resting in my car at the moment. I will definitely keep you all updated when I do finally take SN. I have until the first week in November really. But I don't want to wait that long.

I am sorry this did not work out the way you intended. You have most likely given yourself an opioid addiction now, or rather, a physical dependency.

May I ask, did you ever take opioids in your life beforehand?

I hope this will be over for you soon and without further suffering.

 

[anonymous2025]

I am sorry this did not work out the way you intended. You have most likely given yourself an opioid addiction now, or rather, a physical dependency.

May I ask, did you ever take opioids in your life beforehand?

I hope this will be over for you soon and without further suffering.

Thank you for your comment. And yeah Ive been addicted to Percocet/oxy in the past. Ive been on a low dose of mdone for a couple years, it was suppose to help me get off opiates but I've now been on this stuff too long. It's a vicious cycle in itself.

 

[elenaboo25]

Thank you for your comment. And yeah Ive been addicted to Percocet/oxy in the past. Ive been on a low dose of mdone for a couple years, it was suppose to help me get off opiates but I've now been on this stuff too long. It's a vicious cycle in itself.

In that case, I don't think you'll be able to ctb on opiates alone, unless you have an absolutely huge amount and take it all at once, but even that might fail given you probably have a medium to high tolerance for it already. Sorry to say. I hope you find peace, whatever you end up doing.

 

[anonymous2025]

In that case, I don't think you'll be able to ctb on opiates alone, unless you have an absolutely huge amount and take it all at once, but even that might fail given you probably have a medium to high tolerance for it already. Sorry to say. I hope you find peace, whatever you end up doing.

Yeah I think your right, I have to put SN in the mix to accomplish this, I have everything I need, I just really wanted it to work with mdone. I guess because I'm familiar with it. I'm just terrified to drink it. With the news I got recently I have to get the job done by the end of this month, Halloween would be a great day to go for me, but in my circumstances I think it's better to not plan a day and just build up the courage to do it. It's also just really comforting to have this forum because I don't have anybody I can talk to about this.