Hello to you all, this is a delayed message. I passed away or I am vegetable, hopefully the first one. I did not post too much around, but still, it felt like I should do this.
I wish my life turned out differently, but when I finally found the help, it was too late for me. I fought pretty much 13 years after the experiment with pseudo ezo therapy which ruined my life. In following years I tried different therapies and psychiatrists, but should have tried more of them or asked more for the help in searching for the solution when there was still some people around me. Despite the state I was in I should have taken more risk in my story and at least go for the somatic experiencing sooner or should have kept on asking if there is some new meds availably all the time. But it was hard to keep pushing all the time and begged for the help and it felt like I was stuck in the hell nobody really understood. It is been just now, the period when new modalities are being established, not really that much available back then. But retrospectively it turned out that it was possible to get proper help sooner, years sooner, but I was not lucky even though I bumped into it and made a lot of mistakes on my journey anyway, though it was impossible to think straight in those extreme states of mind I was locked in for years to figure the way out and act on it.
So my message is if there is a still some fight in you, try some new therapies or approaches or be difficult to psychiatrist or therapist if something is not working for you for a long time, ask them to help you search for some new treatments available or if you can have some close person to confront the professionals for you. Because often there are solutions for a lot of suffering in there, but sometimes it is just way too hard to reach them or have even knowledge they existed at the first place. I know there are a plenty of circumstances you are finding yourself in I have no clue about, but maybe for some of you, it would be still possible to get lucky, which I would really wish for, it would.
I know the fight here pro-lifers vs. pro-choicer etc. I do not care about that much. I am sure that most of you if there was real help available, you would go for it, but sometime it is not and sometime it is probably too late and sometime the person just does not want to fight any more. I understand that much. I can only share my experience as a last thing to do in this world.
Wish you all the luck that I did not cash in to use in whatever path you are choosing.
I wish my life turned out differently, but when I finally found the help, it was too late for me. I fought pretty much 13 years after the experiment with pseudo ezo therapy which ruined my life. In following years I tried different therapies and psychiatrists, but should have tried more of them or asked more for the help in searching for the solution when there was still some people around me. Despite the state I was in I should have taken more risk in my story and at least go for the somatic experiencing sooner or should have kept on asking if there is some new meds availably all the time. But it was hard to keep pushing all the time and begged for the help and it felt like I was stuck in the hell nobody really understood. It is been just now, the period when new modalities are being established, not really that much available back then. But retrospectively it turned out that it was possible to get proper help sooner, years sooner, but I was not lucky even though I bumped into it and made a lot of mistakes on my journey anyway, though it was impossible to think straight in those extreme states of mind I was locked in for years to figure the way out and act on it.
So my message is if there is a still some fight in you, try some new therapies or approaches or be difficult to psychiatrist or therapist if something is not working for you for a long time, ask them to help you search for some new treatments available or if you can have some close person to confront the professionals for you. Because often there are solutions for a lot of suffering in there, but sometimes it is just way too hard to reach them or have even knowledge they existed at the first place. I know there are a plenty of circumstances you are finding yourself in I have no clue about, but maybe for some of you, it would be still possible to get lucky, which I would really wish for, it would.
I know the fight here pro-lifers vs. pro-choicer etc. I do not care about that much. I am sure that most of you if there was real help available, you would go for it, but sometime it is not and sometime it is probably too late and sometime the person just does not want to fight any more. I understand that much. I can only share my experience as a last thing to do in this world.
Wish you all the luck that I did not cash in to use in whatever path you are choosing.
