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Truck-kun

Truck-kun

no regrets, only swag
Oct 22, 2021
10
Hey
I'm going to ctb with SN later today, but i feel super restless and anxious for some reason. I have been fasting for like 12 hours already maybe? and taken some antiemetics. I just want to relax and read for the rest of the time while I am still here, but I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin lol.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,492
I wish you the best with your plans. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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Lone_Gray_Wolf

Lone_Gray_Wolf

Fate plays chess with 2 queens
Aug 21, 2020
263
Good luck, we are here in case anything cross your mind. May the stars guide you to where there is no pain.

Wish you the best.
 
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bed

CTBed
Aug 24, 2019
919
did the feeling happen after you took your AE? Inner restlessness is a side effect of meto, might be the same with other AE's.

I wish you the best with whatever you choose. <3
 
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Truck-kun

Truck-kun

no regrets, only swag
Oct 22, 2021
10
did the feeling happen after you took your AE? Inner restlessness is a side effect of meto, might be the same with other AE's.

I wish you the best with whatever you choose. <3
Yea, this must be it then because i took meto. I don't think I'm going to take any more meds before I ctb because this feeling is super uncomfortable lol.
 
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bed

CTBed
Aug 24, 2019
919
Yea, this must be it then because i took meto. I don't think I'm going to take any more meds before I ctb because this feeling is super uncomfortable lol.
i'm sorry you have to endure that :(
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
Hey
I'm going to ctb with SN later today, but i feel super restless and anxious for some reason. I have been fasting for like 12 hours already maybe? and taken some antiemetics. I just want to relax and read for the rest of the time while I am still here, but I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin lol.
I wish you peace. Nothing bad about changing your mind. Just so you know <3
So many people died from sn this week... Like never before
 
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Truck-kun

Truck-kun

no regrets, only swag
Oct 22, 2021
10
I wish you peace. Nothing bad about changing your mind. Just so you know <3
So many people died from sn this week... Like never before
Thank you. I noticed the amount of SN death too :((. I'm pretty set on this, just feeling some side effects from meds.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I hope you find the peace desired
✨ ✨
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
Thank you. I noticed the amount of SN death too :((. I'm pretty set on this, just feeling some side effects from meds.
I was thinking about also going by sn this week. >~<'
No rush. It is weird to see newer folks going so fast, while we are just staying here for many months, not ctbing, not recovering.
I wish you freedom and peace.
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
I wish you peace. Hopefully I will be joining soon
 
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Peaceisnear

Peaceisnear

Love it when I die slow
Oct 7, 2021
33
Save travels. I will be joining later this week
 
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Mtilla

Mtilla

Member
Oct 29, 2021
6
Hello, I am new here. I try to learn a out suicide, the best way known so far. What is ctb? And sn? Sorry for the stupid newbie questions. I just don't want to live no more. I am suffering from loniness, regrets, lost and have nobody.. and afraid of painful loneliness ahead when I get older. I am 42 living in a cold society.
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
Hello, I am new here. I try to learn a out suicide, the best way known so far. What is ctb? And sn? Sorry for the stupid newbie questions. I just don't want to live no more. I am suffering from loniness, regrets, lost and have nobody.. and afraid of painful loneliness ahead when I get older. I am 42 living in a cold society.
Ctb means catching the bus. SN is sodium Nitrite
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
If it is your time to go then I hope you find peace.
 
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luckzz3ra

luckzz3ra

Member
Oct 29, 2021
22
I wish you found peace. One day I will joing too.
 
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Chockles

Experienced
Sep 17, 2021
270
I wish you peace. Later this week I will be CTB too
 
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forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
I wish you peace, friend. I am sorry you had to endure all of this.
 
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Mtilla

Mtilla

Member
Oct 29, 2021
6
Ctb means catching the bus. SN is sodium Nitrite
Thank you for the reply. Catching the bus is just another word for suicide? Or is it meaning standing infron of bus as a suicide method?
 
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Chockles

Experienced
Sep 17, 2021
270
Thank you for the reply. Catching the bus is just another word for suicide? Or is it meaning standing infron of bus as a suicide method

Thank you for the reply. Catching the bus is just another word for suicide? Or is it meaning standing infron of bus as a suicide method?
Any suicide method CTB
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
Thank you for the reply. Catching the bus is just another word for suicide? Or is it meaning standing infron of bus as a suicide method?
Just another meaning of suicide

Edit: Chockles beat me to it
 
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eryu

eryu

Member
Sep 25, 2021
90
I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin lol.
Akathisia is apparently a common side effect.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metoclopramide#Side_effects
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Akathisia

I'm kind of disturbed to learn this. I've seen people referring to meto a lot here but haven't really read about it. I did not know it crossed the blood-brain barrier (it looks like a lot -all?- of antiemetics do). This could be quite disruptive for some people.
More intense akathisia is one of the worst things a person can experience but even the milder forms are really awful. I would never want to experience any from of this again. I definitely wouldn't want it when I was about to ctb. Maybe for some it would help "spur them on" but for me I'd just shut down.

Sorry that you are experiencing it. People often describe it as torture (inducing akathisia with drugs actually has been used as a torture method).
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
People asking questions on a goodbye thread need to show respect for god sake and post their questions on the main forum. Someone is fucking dying here and this is their personal thread.
 
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PinkSakura

PinkSakura

Rip Flower I'll never forget you </3 我想你花
Feb 8, 2021
137
:heart:
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
I hope you will find peace. RIP.
 
forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
Akathisia is apparently a common side effect.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metoclopramide#Side_effects
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Akathisia

I'm kind of disturbed to learn this. I've seen people referring to meto a lot here but haven't really read about it. I did not know it crossed the blood-brain barrier (it looks like a lot -all?- of antiemetics do). This could be quite disruptive for some people.
More intense akathisia is one of the worst things a person can experience but even the milder forms are really awful. I would never want to experience any from of this again. I definitely wouldn't want it when I was about to ctb. Maybe for some it would help "spur them on" but for me I'd just shut down.

Sorry that you are experiencing it. People often describe it as torture (inducing akathisia with drugs actually has been used as a torture method).
It really is torture. I had that happen to me because I once overdosed on meto, after two days I was rushed to the hospital to be put on perfusions to get it out of my system. It was horrible.
 
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liberty_222

liberty_222

psychotic
Nov 28, 2021
361
It really is torture. I had that happen to me because I once overdosed on meto, after two days I was rushed to the hospital to be put on perfusions to get it out of my system. It was horrible.
How much would you say you overdosed on???
 

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