Help Going to try hanging myself just wanna talk to someone who wont call the cops for a bit

[throwawayghm]

Just wanna talk if anyone's stull awake

 

[DeathWish3301]

Just wanna talk if anyone's stull awake

Anything you want to talk about specifically?

 

[throwawayghm]

Anything you want to talk about specifically?

Idk i was drunk but I got nervous and I think the adrenaline flushed it out of my system u got anything in mind

 

[DeathWish3301]

Idk i was drunk but I got nervous and I think the adrenaline flushed it out of my system u got anything in mind

I don't, no. I asked because you made the post so I made an assumption that you had something in mind you want to talk about.

You can send me a DM if you need to vent or just need/want someone to talk to for a bit. I'm not occupied at the moment.

Unless you'd prefer to keep it on your thread; that's fine, as well.

 

[throwawayghm]

I don't, no. I asked because you made the post so I made an assumption that you had something in mind you want to talk about.

You can send me a DM if you need to vent or just need/want someone to talk to for a bit. I'm not occupied at the moment.

Unless you'd prefer to keep it on your thread; that's fine, as well.

It doesnt rly matter but I idk ig how was your day? Or how's it going depending where you are in the world

 

[samoyedlover]

Here if you want to talk

 

[throwawayghm]

Here if you want to talk

How was your day? Idk what to talk about sry

 

[RiftbornVeil]

If you have anything on your mind, feel free to DM/reply here

 

[throwawayghm]

If you have anything on your mind, feel free to DM/reply here

Ngl kinda scared besides alcahol do you know anything that could calm me?

 

[RiftbornVeil]

Ngl kinda scared besides alcahol do you know anything that could calm me?

I'm sorry you hear you feel that way. Please do take great care with alcohol, using it to excess can go downhill, fast.

I've found that writing/journaling my thoughts often helps. It's a great comfort to articulate in words what I feel at a given moment

 

[throwawayghm]

I'm sorry you hear you feel that way. Please do take great care with alcohol, using it to excess can go downhill, fast.

I've found that writing/journaling my thoughts often helps. It's a great comfort to articulate in words what I feel at a given moment

Ngl do feel a bit better thx ig how was your day
Sry to everyone trying to start a private convo shit aint working idk ig if u dont wanna talk in post my discord is nottheirs

 

[RiftbornVeil]

Ngl do feel a bit better thx ig how was your day
Sry to everyone trying to start a private convo shit aint working idk ig if u dont wanna talk in post my discord is nottheirs

Glad to hear you feel better. My day was almost melancholic, I had a concert tonight and it felt very intense.

Private conversations open after a certain degree of activity; keep posting here! Also, I don't suggest sharing your Discord/other social media on public threads, for the sake of privacy.

 

[throwawayghm]

Glad to hear you feel better. My day was almost melancholic, I had a concert tonight and it felt very intense.

Private conversations open after a certain degree of activity; keep posting here! Also, I don't suggest sharing your Discord/other social media on public threads, for the sake of privacy.

I mean idc and I should be gone soon ish


Fuck yea who did you go and see?

 

[RiftbornVeil]

I mean idc and I should be gone soon ish


Fuck yea who did you go and see?

Myself, I believe. It was a concert band performance and I was a clarinetist within the group. I've been doing this certain performance for 4 years now, and it's my second-last time doing it.

 

[throwawayghm]

Myself, I believe. It was a concert band performance and I was a clarinetist within the group. I've been doing this certain performance for 4 years now, and it's my second-last time doing it.

Oh shit fuck yea dude 4 years is a long time to be doing that im sure you'll be missed but I hope this is a new chapter in your life I wish you only the best
Ig not to end convo uuuh besides music u got any hobbies?

 

[RiftbornVeil]

Oh shit fuck yea dude 4 years is a long time to be doing that im sure you'll be missed but I hope this is a new chapter in your life I wish you only the best
Ig not to end convo uuuh besides music u got any hobbies?

Thank you so much <3 it is unfortunate leaving something that has given me so much, but yes, it's a chapter I look forward to all the same

I enjoy programming especially the cybersec domain, volunteering, and exploring philosophy. How about yourself?

 

[throwawayghm]

Thank you so much <3 it is unfortunate leaving something that has given me so much, but yes, it's a chapter I look forward to all the same

I enjoy programming especially the cybersec domain, volunteering, and exploring philosophy. How about yourself?

Aw hell yeah dude glad your helping out and giving smth to others the most i did is buy my coworkers lunch from time to time wish I did more
But idk i go to airsoft and milsims used to be big into gaming
Funny ig story I was at frostfall (12 hr milsim) thw high for the day was 2 degrees i thibk and I ate shit and got snow all over my hand and hot hands wouldn't help after a point they wouldn't work so I had to go up to a random dude and ask him to undo my fly and help me get my hands in my neither region so I didnt get frostbite or smth kinda funny to look back at

Pic is of me it isnt the best but its the only one I got of me at the event

Feel free not to answer but what brought you to sasu?

 

[throwawayghm]

Thank you so much <3 it is unfortunate leaving something that has given me so much, but yes, it's a chapter I look forward to all the same

I enjoy programming especially the cybersec domain, volunteering, and exploring philosophy. How about yourself?

Aw hell yeah dude glad your helping out and giving smth to others the most i did is buy my coworkers lunch from time to time wish I did more
But idk i go to airsoft and milsims used to be big into gaming
Funny ig story I was at frostfall (12 hr milsim) thw high for the day was 2 degrees i thibk and I ate shit and got snow all over my hand and hot hands wouldn't help after a point they wouldn't work so I had to go up to a random dude and ask him to undo my fly and help me get my hands in my neither region so I didnt get frostbite or smth kinda funny to look back at

Feel free not to answer but what brought you to sasu?

 

[throwawayghm]

Thank you so much <3 it is unfortunate leaving something that has given me so much, but yes, it's a chapter I look forward to all the same

I enjoy programming especially the cybersec domain, volunteering, and exploring philosophy. How about yourself?

Im glad u help others out thats great thx for that
I do airsoft and milsims
Ig not to end convo what brought u to sasu
Feel free not to answer ik that might be uncomfortable

 

[RiftbornVeil]

Im glad u help others out thats great thx for that
I do airsoft and milsims
Ig not to end convo what brought u to sasu
Feel free not to answer ik that might be uncomfortable

Is Airsoft military simulation?

No problem at all. I suppose I came here to feel seen with all matters related to CTB, and for tips to improve my chances of success. How about you?

 

[throwawayghm]

Is Airsoft military simulation?

No problem at all. I suppose I came here to feel seen with all matters related to CTB, and for tips to improve my chances of success. How about you?

I came here cus the video didnt make an acc for about 2 years after when I rly wanted to ctb

airsoft and milsim are kinds 2 different things tbh I kinda like airsoft more just going for 8 hours and having fun or whatever milsim is nice but staying for 3 days in the rain kinda sucks sometimes heres a pic of me at frostfall

 

[RiftbornVeil]

I came here cus the video didnt make an acc for about 2 years after when I rly wanted to ctb

airsoft and milsim are kinds 2 different things tbh I kinda like airsoft more just going for 8 hours and having fun or whatever milsim is nice but staying for 3 days in the rain kinda sucks sometimes heres a pic of me at frostfallView attachment 195155

I didn't realize these events were hosted in-person, that's so cool!

What's Frostfall?

 

[throwawayghm]

This is fucked my best friend (long story short the one who saved me ) is awake I was about to write him a good bye msg fuck

I didn't realize these events were hosted in-person, that's so cool!

What's Frostfall?

It was an event hosted by gun gamers production it was somewhere in western pa it was only 12hr msw events are usually 3 days
Ngl I am kinda sad I won't get to smoke another cigarette might smoke one in the bathroom idk

 

[Untimely]

Hey feel free to DM me if you want, happy to chat, or public convo is cool

 

[throwawayghm]

Alr well ig enough ima finish my drink and try wish mr luck in fucking terrified

One more thing ig a why idk ig I love stalling
Basically I was depressed as fuck and put my everything into a milsim and failed I dropped out on the infil ruck at balkar tried to jump off a bridge on the way home and failed

A few months after the guilt was killing me so I told my dad and made sure to nail it into his brain not to tell my mom later I told my mom and it fucked up their marriage now dad sleeps in the basement and I cant talk to him without him bringing up how moms probably going to divorce him and how its not my fault (it is all I had to do is keep my fucking mouth shut) the guilt and stress is killing me I tried getting better going to the gym I did plan to get a prostitute before I go but idk i dont know where to find one in the us so I just didn't thats one thing im regret before going but whatever
.my entire life has been nothing but self and ig I cant stop so classic me im going to do the most selfish thing I can do and ctb

Im so fucking sry mom dad quin Sam everyone who gave a fuck about me but im so fucking weak and can't help myself I had an alright life and I wish you all only the best I hope rhat you dont blame yourselves there was nothing you could have done i kept most things from you I hope just forget about me I should have never existed in the first place

Love you all goodbye hopefully
I pussed out again fml why the fuck cant i do it im a fucking failure at everything I do i cant even kill myself ik I dont want to be here so why the fuck am I still here I such a fuck up

 

[RiftbornVeil]

Alr well ig enough ima finish my drink and try wish mr luck in fucking terrified

One more thing ig a why idk ig I love stalling
Basically I was depressed as fuck and put my everything into a milsim and failed I dropped out on the infil ruck at balkar tried to jump off a bridge on the way home and failed

A few months after the guilt was killing me so I told my dad and made sure to nail it into his brain not to tell my mom later I told my mom and it fucked up their marriage now dad sleeps in the basement and I cant talk to him without him bringing up how moms probably going to divorce him and how its not my fault (it is all I had to do is keep my fucking mouth shut) the guilt and stress is killing me I tried getting better going to the gym I did plan to get a prostitute before I go but idk i dont know where to find one in the us so I just didn't thats one thing im regret before going but whatever
.my entire life has been nothing but self and ig I cant stop so classic me im going to do the most selfish thing I can do and ctb

Im so fucking sry mom dad quin Sam everyone who gave a fuck about me but im so fucking weak and can't help myself I had an alright life and I wish you all only the best I hope rhat you dont blame yourselves there was nothing you could have done i kept most things from you I hope just forget about me I should have never existed in the first place

Love you all goodbye hopefully
I pussed out again fml why the fuck cant i do it im a fucking failure at everything I do i cant even kill myself ik I dont want to be here so why the fuck am I still here I such a fuck up

Hey, you're not a failure at everything. Our bodies are literally built around SI; it is very difficult to CTB.

I am so sorry you have struggled this much. You are such a courageous person for bearing this much weight on your shoulders.

I genuinely hope that whatever choice you make, you receive peace through it. And again, SaSu is here if you wish to talk/vent/ask more.