Venting Going to ctb in 3-4 days, but I am really scared of messing it up and survived it especially after the last attempt

[Reuthry]

Yeah I plan to go on 23rd or 24th this month. Same method, night-night, same place, toilet cabin, same circumstances. They all remind me of the recent ctb attempt that I survived recently. I am really scared of fucking it up again. I want to ctb so bad but I can't help being scared of surviving. I need some luck as it seems. I don't plan to survive this time.

 

[BringMeToLife]

I wish you luck, really. The thought of surviving an attempt is so scary. I hope everything goes according to plan

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so incredibly cruel how people even have to worry about trying to die potentially going wrong in the first place, it's horrible how we cannot just have the option to peacefully die in a guaranteed way. But anyway I wish you the best of luck and I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.