someplace better
New Member
- May 11, 2025
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I've done this so many times. I hope for things to get better while doing absolutely nothing to actually do it, all while there actually there being no chance of actually improving. I'm so delusional to believe it could ever get better. There's no way I can get myself out of medical debt with so much social anxiety. I hate how I look so much and it's mostly unchangable. I just want to fucking die already. I am too tired to even die. I am completely dysfunctional adult. There is nothing left looking like a male drains so much energy from me. It's the cause of the majority of my problems.
I just end up crashing back into reality, not like I was really distanced from it anyway, and want to jump off a parking garage. I hate my parents for causing me so much irreparable harm on so many levels. I'm so dissociated everyday 24/7. They did so much harm. Life would have been really different if they had never forced me into religious stuff. I really wish they could feel what they did to me. I really wish they had gotten themselves together before they had children.
I just end up crashing back into reality, not like I was really distanced from it anyway, and want to jump off a parking garage. I hate my parents for causing me so much irreparable harm on so many levels. I'm so dissociated everyday 24/7. They did so much harm. Life would have been really different if they had never forced me into religious stuff. I really wish they could feel what they did to me. I really wish they had gotten themselves together before they had children.
