wagner2029
Experienced
- Jun 25, 2023
- 213
and here I am again going around in circles again.
The biggest problem is insomnia, I've suffered for 24 years, I can't sleep, sometimes I don't sleep for two days, even when I sleep I don't rest, my routine is feeling tired and in pain, bad days and worse days.
Insomnia brought depression.
The zolpidem is no longer effective, it ended two weeks ago and I didn't buy any more, I ended up going to sleep and postponing the CTB, lately I just spend time on YouTube waiting for the night to make another attempt, yesterday I prepared the computers, sat in bed and I imagined putting the bag over my head and opening the valve.
The plans are to send automatic messages to the lawyer, a cousin and a police officer friend to recover the body.
I feel so cowardly for not having achieved it yet.
In the meantime, I'm spending my time here, trying to somehow help people who are in a similar situation.
The biggest problem is insomnia, I've suffered for 24 years, I can't sleep, sometimes I don't sleep for two days, even when I sleep I don't rest, my routine is feeling tired and in pain, bad days and worse days.
Insomnia brought depression.
The zolpidem is no longer effective, it ended two weeks ago and I didn't buy any more, I ended up going to sleep and postponing the CTB, lately I just spend time on YouTube waiting for the night to make another attempt, yesterday I prepared the computers, sat in bed and I imagined putting the bag over my head and opening the valve.
The plans are to send automatic messages to the lawyer, a cousin and a police officer friend to recover the body.
I feel so cowardly for not having achieved it yet.
In the meantime, I'm spending my time here, trying to somehow help people who are in a similar situation.