Venting Going a week and realizing if you had died you wouldn't of missed anything important

[ikadasui]

Now change that week into a month, then into a year and years and years... My life is abnormally bad and it's no surprise. I'm sick of fighting and working so much everyday for absolutely nothing but the right to do it again the next day, man. Fuck being the offspring of brain diseased ugly rodents, fuck being adopted and raised by an entirely different race than my own, fuck this current state of the world that forces each and everyone of us to do shit we don't care about day in and day out, AND FUCK ME! for not having the foresight to hang myself with my umbilical cord while I was still in the womb

 

[F@#$]

Just a week? I've spent 30 years misery. Wishing I would have been gone long ago. Wondering why I'm still here.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, I sympathise. I think this is one of the ways I know that I'm ready. Will anything I potentially do in the future be a good enough reason to keep me here? Even in a best case scenario- probably not. Even successes I have enjoyed in the past haven't really been enough in the long run. I'm so sorry for your situation though. It sounds like you got a really rough deal in life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so tired of suffering in this cruel and dreadful existence, I very much I wish I never existed as well, existing is certainly very undesirable.

 

[ikadasui]

Just a week? I've spent 30 years misery. Wishing I would have been gone long ago. Wondering why I'm still here.

I used week as a starting point. It's been ongoing for 13 almost 14 years now...