God wants me to kill myself

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

I'm not religious, but for the past year and a half god has been telling me to kill myself, It's for the good of everyone, I want to know if this is normal and I figure that since I'm such a bad person for this to happen that whether or not I post this he's still going to punish me so it doesn't really matter I'm sorery I'ms roory, everytime i stray from him and think about a future, he makes sure something happens so that I know that he want s me to kill myself. I know 100% for certain. I just want to know if anyone else has the same experience?? Advice for the necessity of going through with it. Going to buy a tree ratchet and night night my self this summer once the obligations are over so that I can fulfill my purpose/

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[LaVieEnRose]

How exactly are you ascertaining that God wants you to die?

Are you interpreting bad things happening as evidence of that desire?

Or are you literally hearing him tell you that in your head?

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

How exactly are you ascertaining that God wants you to die?

Are you interpreting bad things happening as evidence of that desire?

Or are you literally hearing him tell you that in your head?

I don't remember, how it started, but at the beginning it was an obbligation, no voices or anything, it just makes sense. It's always very specific.

:)

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I don't remember, how it started, but at the beginning it was an obbligation, no voices or anything, it just makes sense. It's always very specific.

:)

Wouldn't you think God wants you to be happy? And if God wants you to kill yourself then screw that just as like screw any person who told you to do so. If God is so powerful and therefore worthy of being listened to, then if he wants you to die he'll send death your way regardless of what you do.

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Wouldn't you think God wants you to be happy? And if God wants you to kill yourself then screw that just as like screw any person who told you to do so. If God is so powerful and therefore worthy of being listened to, then if he wants you to die he'll send death your way regardless of what you do.

No he wants me to do it. I'm pretty trusting in people, or I would just not understand if someone said that to me. I can't really say if he's powerful or not but he definitely wants me to die and it to be me to do it. He knows what I've done and does not want me to be happy. sorry by the way I'm not trying to look for attention. Sorry.

:)

 

[LaVieEnRose]

No he wants me to do it. I'm pretty trusting in people, or I would just not understand if someone said that to me. I can't really say if he's powerful or not but he definitely wants me to die and it to be me to do it. He knows what I've done and does not want me to be happy. sorry by the way I'm not trying to look for attention. Sorry.

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Don't take this the wrong way but I highly urge you to speak with someone, perhaps at a local emergency room or maybe someone in the clergy. Don't throw your life away over what anyone says you should do, divine or not.

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Don't take this the wrong way but I highly urge you to speak with someone, perhaps at a local emergency room. Don't throw your life away over what anyone says you should do, divine or not.

No I deserve it so it's fine, I don't speak to people really, atleast not to their faces but thank you for replying to me, you're the only person I've spoken to about this so I appreciate it, super sorry again really feel bad about it, but It has to be and I suppose I'll make up for it soon..

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[Dr Iron Arc]

I feel the exact same way. I'm pretty sure God is just using me to motivate somebody else in life somehow through my eventual suicide.

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

I feel the exact same way. I'm pretty sure God is just using me to motivate somebody else in life somehow through my eventual suicide.

I know what you mean, I'm just trying to make other people as happy as possible despite what I've done so that I leave a benefit when I have to go.

:)

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[locked*n*loaded]

If you're hearing "voices" in your head telling you to kill yourself, you truly need to seek help from a medical professional.

 

[deadinsidex2]

I know what you mean, I'm just trying to make other people as happy as possible despite what I've done so that I leave a benefit when I have to go.

:)

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You feel guilty about something specific my friend if u don't mind what is it that you have done exactly?!

 

[xinino]

Who the fuck needs approval or support of god? Nietzsche is rolling in his grave, kill god man then deal with yourself.

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Who the fuck needs approval or support of god? Nietzsche is rolling in his grave, kill god man then deal with yourself.

I'm just trying to please.

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You feel guilty about something specific my friend if u don't mind what is it that you have done exactly?!

I am obviously afraid to confess, but lots of not very nice things to other people that I regret but can't undo.

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If you're hearing "voices" in your head telling you to kill yourself, you truly need to seek help from a medical professional.

More compulsions than voices. But thank you!

:) < 3

 

[Bya gtor]

Hello, I just joined this forum today and found your post. I feel like I am in the same boat as you with respects to some unknown force toying with me, every time I start being positive, life just turns back to hell. This pattern has been repeating since four years and I have been feelinf some outer force is trying to tell me that my life is not worth living. I am not religious but only listen to podcasts because I am fascinated by different concepts art, religion, history etc. Outwardly, I am a positive person but this 'thing' is not letting me pursue my goals, Only time will tell whether I am able to defeat this 'God'. I am not here to inspire you or anything, life is just hell, its hell, its hell, its hell. Lol.

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Hello, I just joined this forum today and found your post. I feel like I am in the same boat as you with respects to some unknown force toying with me, every time I start being positive, life just turns back to hell. This pattern has been repeating since four years and I have been feelinf some outer force is trying to tell me that my life is not worth living. I am not religious but only listen to podcasts because I am fascinated by different concepts art, religion, history etc. Outwardly, I am a positive person but this 'thing' is not letting me pursue my goals, Only time will tell whether I am able to defeat this 'God'. I am not here to inspire you or anything, life is just hell, its hell, its hell, its hell. Lol.

From what you have said I can very much relate

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[Bya gtor]

Finding this forum has been a revelation, so many of us are suffering for myriad of reasons, not at all surprised though lmao. I felt comfort, finding others are suffering too, I thank you for your post because finding someone going through the same thing feels comforting. I would encourage you to fight this 'thing' but even if you don't, hey I am not here to judge you.

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Finding this forum has been a revelation, so many of us are suffering for myriad of reasons, not at all surprised though lmao. I felt comfort, finding others are suffering too, I thank you for your post because finding someone going through the same thing feels comforting. I would encourage you to fight this 'thing' but even if you don't, hey I am not here to judge you.

Thank you!! I understand and support your desire to fight, however I as an individual agree with it so it is what it is!

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[Bya gtor]

 

[thenamingofcats]

It's just a delusion, common for people under long term stress or that are suffering. I've had things like this before and it can seem compelling, but it's not real. The antidote is to realize that it's coming from you, not a outside or supernatural force.

 

[lovedread]

I'm not religious, but for the past year and a half god has been telling me to kill myself, It's for the good of everyone, I want to know if this is normal and I figure that since I'm such a bad person for this to happen that whether or not I post this he's still going to punish me so it doesn't really matter I'm sorery I'ms roory, everytime i stray from him and think about a future, he makes sure something happens so that I know that he want s me to kill myself. I know 100% for certain. I just want to know if anyone else has the same experience?? Advice for the necessity of going through with it. Going to buy a tree ratchet and night night my self this summer once the obligations are over so that I can fulfill my purpose/

I love you
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I have the same exact thoughts lol. Youre not alone

 

[sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft]

I'm not religious, but for the past year and a half god has been telling me to kill myself, It's for the good of everyone, I want to know if this is normal and I figure that since I'm such a bad person for this to happen that whether or not I post this he's still going to punish me so it doesn't really matter I'm sorery I'ms roory, everytime i stray from him and think about a future, he makes sure something happens so that I know that he want s me to kill myself. I know 100% for certain. I just want to know if anyone else has the same experience?? Advice for the necessity of going through with it. Going to buy a tree ratchet and night night my self this summer once the obligations are over so that I can fulfill my purpose/

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idk if yuo can relate but for the last maybe 3 years or 2,5 ive also felt like God or the Universe is telling me that i need to kill myself by sending me signs. all bad things that happened and the way my life deteriorated in the past years cant be coincidental. like God's sending me signals that my time on earth is done and if i stay much longer it will only get worse and worse to stimulate me to kill myself. though my pevious attempts were unsuccessful im thinking of trying again this week. i mean if God wanted me alive he would treat me the way he treats everyone else around me so its a pretty clear indiciation of his intentions towards me or should i say the lack of them, and a sign that i have no place living anymore and my purpose for the Universe, whatever it might have been, is already served and im no longer needed

I don't remember, how it started, but at the beginning it was an obbligation, no voices or anything, it just makes sense. It's always very specific.

:)

i can really relate to that. everyone i tell about the God's plan's end on me think im delusional or that things that happen to me do not qualify as enough proof, but i just know it, like it was such a revelation for me to understand that, as everything just started to make sense. i just know its true and they just dont see it because God still has purpose for them so he doesnt let them understand

 

[IBM0000]

Fact is, your life is actually bad. And it's not because of some divine intervention, it's because of this system we are living through. All of us are mere mortals to the god-like system. And this god isn't a good and kind one but an evil and malicious one.
All despair is because of our material situations and problems we conclude as societal even mental are in reality because of our material conditions not being fulfilled.

 

[tunnelV]

I think God wants me to kill myself too. He has given me a shit life, shit family, poverty. Shit relationships, lifelong depression. Then all of that on repeat no matter how old I get. I'm tired, the word doesn't even describe it. Like what other outcome would it be. God is all knowing. That means he KNEW even on the day I was born how my life would be.