God is making me suffer i swear

[Ghostly]

I didn't the fucking guts to just pull that damn trigger cuz of SI fuuuck me I feel worse why is God allowing me to live wtf!

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

By all rights I should be given your shotgun. Hope you start feeling better or something, fam.

 

[aneurysm]

knew it :p

hugs

 

[OnlyTheWind]

No shame in backing out, we are all here for you.

 

[woknows]

Your annoying avatar is making me suffer and I doubt I am the only one.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Plenty of shotgun in the store, grab your own.

And what do people mean "knew it"

It would be nice if people can stop being mean.
Who said suicide is easy?
What's wrong with living

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Plenty of shotgun in the store, grab your own.

Not a murican, sadly, otherwise I wouldn't still be breathing.

 

[aneurysm]

And what do people mean "knew it"

I wasn't trying to be mean, did it come off as such?

 

[fred farkle]

Your annoying avatar is making me suffer and I doubt I am the only one.

I HATE that thing!!!!!

 

[Raining]

I thought having a gun can make things easier....it's still hard....

 

[KleinerWolf]

Just leave op alone next time.

the last thing people need is being judged
for something you would also experience.

suicide is not a game and it's not a competition.
Don't be toxic.

 

[LastFlowers]

I wasn't trying to be mean, did it come off as such?

Well yea. What did you mean by it?
I think most people would take that as a flippant way of saying you knew they weren't going to go through with it, calling them incapable-or a chicken shit-essentially (which wouldn't be good in the context of suicide).
I'm not saying that was your intention, but it just didn't come across well, especially with the ":P" added, (unless you are friends with them? Or know something I don't.)

 

[aneurysm]

Just leave op alone next time.

the last thing people need is being judged

Who was judging who? I'm confused.

As for my comment, it was meant to be light-hearted and comforting. Like a way of reassuring him that we know it's not easy.

If you think that I was trying to guilt him, then I don't know what to tell you.

 

[Ghostly]

I HATE that thing!!!!!

I'm sorry

 

[aneurysm]

I think most people would take that as a flippant

I'm not sure what you mean by flippant in this context (english isn't my primary language), but I would say it was meant to be a little flippant. But in the light-hearted, fun way. Not in the condescending way.
OP did my initial comment bother you? If it did, I'm sorry. Wasn't my intention at all

 

[LastFlowers]

I'm not sure what you mean by flippant in this context (english isn't my primary language), but I would say it was meant to be a little flippant. But in the light-hearted, fun way. Not in the condescending way.
OP did my initial comment bother you? If it did, I'm sorry

I just don't think it came across the way you intended, and it can easily be taken the wrong way, is all. Not saying you were trying to be condescending.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Op can do whatever he wants, including profile pic.

Also it's really toxic when people think
Just because other people are suicidal enough but have SI or whatever reason they didn't go through with it,

all of the sudden they should rob off their method instead,

like NO, that's toxic.
You are invalidating other people and that's not okay.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

You are invalidating other people and that's not okay.

You seem to be the only one with the problem here.

 

[Makko]

I'm sorry

Thanks for changing it.

 

[KleinerWolf]

You seem to be the only one with the problem here.

Good luck because you are gonna need it.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Good luck because you are gonna need it.

Why will I need the luck?

 

[Makko]

Why will I need the luck?

To not land feet-first when you jump would be a good one.

 

[Amumu]

Please be careful when you post on threads like that... seriously talking about his profile pic what the hell.
Take care OP.

 

[NodusTollens]

Sorry man, I can't imagine what must be going through your mind right now. I hope you can take some time to reconvene, & collect your thoughts. I understand that failed attempts come with emotion trauma & thoughts needing to be unpacked.

Please try not to be so hard on yourself- what you're trying to do isn't easy. I have a few failed attempts under my belt, I understand how you're feeling right now. HUGS.

- journey - xo

 

[lost_soul83]

I too think God is trying to constantly punish me and for what? I have no effing clue! I try to be a good person. I've devoted my entire adult life to taking care of my severely disabled child and I'm just emotionally worn the fuck out. Seems like no matter what I do, how much I do exactly what I'm supposed to, God rains down the shit on me and I just can't take it anymore. I just wanna fuckin' scream all. The. Time!!! Why God, WHY?!?!

 

[it's_all_a_game]

Wow, so much rudeness in here. Bullying people who couldn't shoot themselves is the lowest of the low.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Wow, so much rudeness in here. Bullying people who couldn't shoot themselves is the lowest of the low.

Op can do whatever he wants, including profile pic.

Also it's really toxic when people think
Just because other people are suicidal enough but have SI or whatever reason they didn't go through with it,

all of the sudden they should rob off their method instead,

like NO, that's toxic.
You are invalidating other people and that's not okay.

Just read this thread again and I see what you guys mean. Sorry about that, I should probably receive 10% for that one. In my head I was making a fun joke that Ghostly would appreciate but it could be interpreted as bullying or attacking.

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, I don't believe in a benevolent God or something like that but I do believe in good and bad luck.

For instance, genes! We don't choose them but they define who we are. If my genes were a bit different, I wouldn't probably be suicidal! :(

 

[Superdeterminist]

Oher methods are hard enough, but imo, gunshot is one of the most fearsome, so it's not surprising that you weren't able to go through with it this time.

 

[fred farkle]

I'm sorry

Why? Its just a triviality. But thatface flying up and back...ugh!