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GirlOfThought06

GirlOfThought06

autistic by the grace of god
Nov 10, 2025
26
I got invited for a Friendsgiving party I wanted to try so bad and I spent a half hour standing outside in the cold because I didn't wanna go but I collapsed when I got inside I just sat there quietly looking miserable I was so scared and I left so early they all probably hate me because I was such an attention seeking miserable bitch god who attends a party looking miserable I'm a horrible human being I should kill myself they all hate me why was I excited to finally be invited to a party when I just ruin everything
 
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Persona3

Persona3

Member
Nov 17, 2025
25
You're being way too hard on yourself. If they were going to hate you, it wasn't the right environment anyway. People who care about you would be more concerned about how you were. You weren't seeking attention for attention's sake, you just weren't feeling okay. Dw about it too much
 
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always_a_crossroads

Member
Oct 30, 2025
27
You took a risk and you went inside. It was hard, and it was scary, and you went anyway. That's a brave thing to do.
And though you felt awkward and embarrassed, you managed to stay for half an hour.
IMHO that counts as a victory.

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dendritedandruff

dendritedandruff

guh
Nov 7, 2025
7
if they knew you enough to invite you and noticed that you left early i think it's more likely that they'd wanna know if you're okay or not. you could reach out to them and apologize for leaving early, let them know you were kinda going through it, and if they're good people they'll understand or let you know how they really felt about it. im sorry it didnt turn out the way you'd hoped for but it doesn't have to be the last try!
 
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