Venting Giving up

[Reflection]

After a while of thinking "it actually might get better", it ended up actually not being the case at all, strangely enough, my brain still hasn't accepted how over it is.

Anyway, I have decided on a new date, which is a little less than a year from now, by then either life smiles to me or I kiss it goodbye. At the very least I'll take that time to experience some of the things I've always wanted to....which mainly are video games lol. As for "future goals", I'll be doing the minimum I can but won't really bother myself with anything till I see it's actually getting somewhere. I just wish I didn't have to worry about all this crap and actually live normally.

 

[deathproof17]

Same. I plan to CTB before the year ends. Until then i'm doing the absolute minimum and biding my time.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm feeling pretty cooked too. But I have obligations, at least for the next three months and change. Maybe, just maybe, morning workouts + weaning off stimulants like caffeine and nicotine will heal me.

Basically I'm hoping that I get some really good sleep and wake up wise. Seems unlikely, but I can't ctb before the spring anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in what you decide.