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OneLastLight
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- Oct 25, 2021
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Hey all,
This is my first post here. I decided tonight was the night I should catch the bus. I wish I could use N but obviously that's complicated to get your hands on. Luckily, after years of being actively suicidal, I am fairly good at finding the spot with partial hanging. I get to a point where my vision gets blurry and my legs and arms start giving out. But every time I take a step back last minute. It's so frustrating. I failed at life and I feel like succeeding at CTB would be the least I could do, but I can't even do that. I don't know what to do. I feel stuck here.
This is my first post here. I decided tonight was the night I should catch the bus. I wish I could use N but obviously that's complicated to get your hands on. Luckily, after years of being actively suicidal, I am fairly good at finding the spot with partial hanging. I get to a point where my vision gets blurry and my legs and arms start giving out. But every time I take a step back last minute. It's so frustrating. I failed at life and I feel like succeeding at CTB would be the least I could do, but I can't even do that. I don't know what to do. I feel stuck here.
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