Discussion getting sn today, anti emetics tmrw

[roping]

hello

im buying the sn today with my mother ,she has no idea im using it to ctb, she asked why i needed it, i told her for a science experiment as an extra curricular activity to cure meats. she ate that right up, shes taking me today, driving me for 45 minutes to this chemical supply store that should have it in pure and large quantities, id still like to do a blood test and ideally an acquarium test too.

i will probably be following stans 48 hour regimen, i dont have anything "scheduled" out yet, ill do that incredibly soon.

thank god i live in a third world country because i can but AE's without prescription here, not meto unfortunately but domperidone, which according to stans guide would work too.

im also buying some pain killers and antacids tomorrow from the same pharmacy, hopefully this all works out.

i dont believe id be writing a note, maybe just instructions on not to help or resuscitate if found.

i should have enough sn for perhaps multiple attempts all with backupglasses (which im not sure how reliably, heard noone survived) regardless, id like to maximize my chances.

at the current moment, i have no access to any sedatives.

ive been thinking about this for over a year, incredibly interested in philosophy and tried being open to all viewpoints, im sure this is what i want.

keeping it brief, i know others here have it a lot worse, but im very depressed, nihilistic and do not feel motivated enough to put any effort even if something could be done about it, id much rather ctb, even though, its not like id live to regret it right?

it would probably hurt my mother and a few close friends, but im not really emotionally attached so im not really bothered.

ill update you guys when i can, please give thoughts if you have any.

also am sorry in advance if i broke any rules on this site.

 

[NMOP3PISdn]

You mind if i ask where you're from?

 

[FuneralCry]

Having SN can be a relief for many, knowing you have a way to exit this world at a time of your own choosing. I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find peace.

 

[Apricity]

Kinda messed up to involve your mother in getting your SN. That's going to haunt her forever. You sound kinda young...

 

[roping]

You mind if i ask where you're from?

id rather maintaij as much anonymity as possible

Kinda messed up to involve your mother in getting your SN. That's going to haunt her forever. You sound kinda young...

forgive the callousness, but i dont really care who and what is affected by my death after im
gone, involving her just makes it more convenient for me
update: plans changed, im picking her up from work on thursday, the lab is minutes away, we agreed to get it then, this will also allow me more time to maybe try and get a beta blocker before hand, ill keep everyone updated, also posting blood test on here when im ready

 

[NMOP3PISdn]

id rather maintaij as much anonymity as possible

forgive the callousness, but i dont really care who and what is affected by my death after im
gone, involving her just makes it more convenient for me
update: plans changed, im picking her up from work on thursday, the lab is minutes away, we agreed to get it then, this will also allow me more time to maybe try and get a beta blocker before hand, ill keep everyone updated, also posting blood test on here when im ready

I understand. You seem determined. Good luck!

 

[roping]

hello

im buying the sn today with my mother ,she has no idea im using it to ctb, she asked why i needed it, i told her for a science experiment as an extra curricular activity to cure meats. she ate that right up, shes taking me today, driving me for 45 minutes to this chemical supply store that should have it in pure and large quantities, id still like to do a blood test and ideally an acquarium test too.

i will probably be following stans 48 hour regimen, i dont have anything "scheduled" out yet, ill do that incredibly soon.

thank god i live in a third world country because i can but AE's without prescription here, not meto unfortunately but domperidone, which according to stans guide would work too.

im also buying some pain killers and antacids tomorrow from the same pharmacy, hopefully this all works out.

i dont believe id be writing a note, maybe just instructions on not to help or resuscitate if found.

i should have enough sn for perhaps multiple attempts all with backupglasses (which im not sure how reliably, heard noone survived) regardless, id like to maximize my chances.

at the current moment, i have no access to any sedatives.

ive been thinking about this for over a year, incredibly interested in philosophy and tried being open to all viewpoints, im sure this is what i want.

keeping it brief, i know others here have it a lot worse, but im very depressed, nihilistic and do not feel motivated enough to put any effort even if something could be done about it, id much rather ctb, even though, its not like id live to regret it right?

it would probably hurt my mother and a few close friends, but im not really emotionally attached so im not really bothered.

ill update you guys when i can, please give thoughts if you have any.

also am sorry in advance if i broke any rules on this site.

update: got domperidone on thursday, forgot to update everybody, 60 tablets of 10mg, dirtt cheap, reliable too because its from an actual pharmacy, i assuke dosing w mg is very similar to meto, in terms if amount, however i still need to look into it more and maybe make a thread on here asking for help or presenting my findings

 

[pento]

Having SN can be a relief for many, knowing you have a way to exit this world at a time of your own choosing. I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find peace.

This is precisely the reason I'm procuring some for myself. If anything, it will prolong my life knowing I can always check out if it gets to be too much.

 

[roping]

This is precisely the reason I'm procuring some for myself. If anything, it will prolong my life knowing I can always check out if it gets to be too much.

i very strongly agree, having it as an option at all times can be very relieving in terms of stress and pressure, youd be more inclined to do shit without having to worry too much as a consequences because of the always available plan b