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chlorine

I am free, therefore I am lost.
Apr 12, 2019
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I was just thinking, i wouldnt like my dead body to be found when i ctb. so i was thinking of preparing like a big tub of sodium hydroxide (baking soda) solution or hydrogen perchloride (which is a suoer acid) and shooting yourself just as soon as you get in the tub so you won't feel the pain of your melting body. of course if it will be found when still decomposing it would be worse than finding a simple dead body so you would need to do it somewhere hidden, maybe digging a hole in a forest or something. But you'd also have to be carefoul not to make it look like a murder, so you'd need to explain everything in a letter and so on. i wonder about the smell though.
 
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I'm probably high while writing this crap.
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Redrock

Redrock

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Mar 5, 2019
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Why do you want to get rid of your body? Nature will take care of your body's recycling, this is the order of life.
 
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It's over and out.
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It seems like too much effort, and why would you want people to find a mess of decomposed organs in a tub? It just seems too much of a hassle for such a little gain.
 
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chlorine

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Apr 12, 2019
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Why do you want to get rid of your body? Nature will take care of your body's recycling, this is the order of life.
well, i don't know why excactly. Maybe I just don't like the idea of my body slowly decomposing and being eaten by worms or an eventual autopsy and my family and friends seeing me lifeless, i dont know really, the idea just doesnt sound right to me. Not every desire has an explanation.
It seems like too much effort, and why would you want people to find a mess of decomposed organs in a tub? It just seems too much of a hassle for such a little gain.
yes, it's not something i think i would actually do. I was indeed just wondering. Sometimes my mind takes me to weird places and ive been ruminating about this quite a lot.
 
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Empty Smile

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The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
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If my plan to go deep enough into the woods, nature will do what it does with a decomposing body. I would rather nature do it than humans.
 
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chlorine

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If my plan to go deep enough into the woods, nature will do what it does with a decomposing body. I would rather nature do it than humans.
yeah i suppose you would. everyone has their preferences. I was really just fantasazing anyway
 
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If my plan to go deep enough into the woods, nature will do what it does with a decomposing body. I would rather nature do it than humans.

I agree. I would be happy to provide a feast for the animals...not much sense in cremating or burying perfectly good meat.
 
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ArtVandelay

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Apr 15, 2019
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I imagine you're an atheist?

I have no reason to believe that any gods exist. But I am a firm believer that resources should not be wasted.
 
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I have no reason to believe that any gods exist. But I am a firm believer that resources should not be wasted.
I figured that :)
As an agnostic i do not quite share your view but i respect your believing in natural recycling :)
 
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NextSummer

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Mar 28, 2019
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If you mind the idea of worms, you should explicitly ask for a cremation.
 
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I was just thinking, i wouldnt like my dead body to be found when i ctb. so i was thinking of preparing like a big tub of sodium hydroxide (baking soda) solution or hydrogen perchloride (which is a suoer acid) and shooting yourself just as soon as you get in the tub so you won't feel the pain of your melting body. of course if it will be found when still decomposing it would be worse than finding a simple dead body so you would need to do it somewhere hidden, maybe digging a hole in a forest or something. But you'd also have to be carefoul not to make it look like a murder, so you'd need to explain everything in a letter and so on. i wonder about the smell though.
That seems like an awful way to be found and even more traumatizing for the person gpwho finds it. I'm going to be cremated so my mother can have my ashes. Too much money to be buried.
 
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Rachel74

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Sep 7, 2019
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What happens if you don't shoot your self properly? Awful way to go x
 
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sadak_the_wanderer

An appropriate painting
Mar 19, 2018
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This really only has a few options. A large body of water is one, combined with a weight. People get lost in national parks and are never found. Finally, explosives. I suppose you could dig into the side of a hill and collapse a tunnel on yourself. Break into the fenced-off part of that volcano in Japan, jump into an iron foundry ....
 
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Jun 19, 2019
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well, i don't know why excactly. Maybe I just don't like the idea of my body slowly decomposing and being eaten by worms or an eventual autopsy and my family and friends seeing me lifeless, i dont know really, the idea just doesnt sound right to me. Not every desire has an explanation.

yes, it's not something i think i would actually do. I was indeed just wondering. Sometimes my mind takes me to weird places and ive been ruminating about this quite a lot.

The problem could be that nobody would believe that you are dead without a body. That would be more cruel to your loved ones. It's easier to let go of a person when seeing their body because you can see that your loved one is not in it but in a better place.

But I get you. Thought of own dead body poked and examined by people and put to cool place for weeks then somebody put make up on the body for funeral etc. is all just sickening. I would rather be cremated right away like they did long time ago where I live. Theoretically I think it would be easier to dig a hole in the forest and cover up mostly and then take a poison or shoot oneself.
In Denmark and Sweden people could buy hand granade and blow themselves up.

But I am certain that a moment we all die we will instantly stop caring and thinking of the earth life.
 
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Aug 21, 2019
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The tub idea would be a rougher sight for someone to come across than it would be to see you with a self-inflicted gun wound.
When you shoot yourself, it goes everywhere. Blood seeps into the flooring beneath you. Deep. All the layers need replaced to get rid of what leaks out of you.
Your brains fly and land on every surface. Your head looks like a jack a lantern in the middle of November.
Now imagine that, but the body is partially dissolved in a bloody bathtub. Bits and bobs of yourself are floating in the solution around you. The stench would stay for weeks, maybe even months after you're found. It would be a way bigger mess.
I don't know how accurate this is in all areas, but I read somewhere that emergency services don't set families/roommates/landlords/etc with someone to do the deep bio hazard cleaning. That either has to be done by your next of kin by hand or they have to pay exorbitant amounts of money for professionals to come in and take care of it. Additionally, when I read that, I read that someone's family member decided to shoot themself in the backyard so that the mess wouldn't ruin the house they were in. I thought that was smart. I've been considering trying to ctb outside since about the age of 11 or so. Long before I read that. I always assumed that the instinct was just a "Hide-and-Die" type of response. Turns out it made the most sense economically and cleanliness-wise.
And now that I'm thinking about it, going for a hike or finding a mildly woodsy area to ctb makes the most sense because animals and worms and fungi and all that shit can reclaim you and do the clean up so no one else has to. Win all around.
I did read your response about not wanting your body to decompose. May I suggest shooting yourself near a fire pit or after setting fire to your car? Instant cremation, although the accuracy of the fire isn't guaranteed after you've shot yourself. This also sounds like something to do in the middle of nowhere.
 
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Sep 27, 2019
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I was just thinking, i wouldnt like my dead body to be found when i ctb. so i was thinking of preparing like a big tub of sodium hydroxide (baking soda) solution or hydrogen perchloride (which is a suoer acid) and shooting yourself just as soon as you get in the tub so you won't feel the pain of your melting body. of course if it will be found when still decomposing it would be worse than finding a simple dead body so you would need to do it somewhere hidden, maybe digging a hole in a forest or something. But you'd also have to be carefoul not to make it look like a murder, so you'd need to explain everything in a letter and so on. i wonder about the smell though.
I too have the idea of not leaving a body,i never really understood why but I just didn't like the idea of being naked in the mortuary or something.....I used to daydream about feeding myself to sharks,i figured i'd get a boat,start chucking overboard blood & fish chunks to attract the sharks,create a feeding frenzy then sit on the edge of the boat,bullet to the head,fall overboard and pretty soon no sign I was ever here apart from a few well fed sharks :)
 
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