getting lucky with disease or circumstance

[greygoosechoose]

Delaying CTB because you might get lucky and die of natural causes or some other random tragic event?

In my case I had a surgery last year where I had like a 40% chance of death, but I didn't die. Still paying that bill

HOWEVER now there is a very small chance that this constant pressure I've been feeling on my temple forehead for months will lead to stroke and other medical complications :)

I "should" get it checked by the doctor, but they would either find there is nothing wrong or put me on some treatment that is costly.

Rationally speaking I should get it checked either way because my quality of life could nosedive if I survive, but honestly I can't think of anything else holding me back from CTB than the hope that my life will end on its own anyways.

 

[58Alice85]

This kind of thinking can be dangerous.
Thought i got 'lucky' with some neurological issues a couple of months ago.
sadly i am still alive

 

[steppen_wolf]

I used to think a lot like this, especially imagining that it might lessen the suffering of the people I'd leave behind, but nowadays I feel like I can't leave it up to chance anymore.

 

[AZRAEL600]

I hoped covid would kill me. But here I am still alive.

 

[zizzou]

The way my luck is going I know I will have to do it myself

 

[certified_idiot]

I am physically disabled to to several chronic progressive conditions and none of them can kill me :(

It's very annoying because I'm in constant pain but the pain can't kill me. My immune system is getting progressively worse each year, but it isn't compromised enough for doctors to care yet. Maybe in a few years I'll contract pneumonia and die because my body is too fucked up to fight it off. That's probably as close as I'll get.

 

[Xielian]

I am physically disabled to to several chronic progressive conditions and none of them can kill me :(

It's very annoying because I'm in constant pain but the pain can't kill me. My immune system is getting progressively worse each year, but it isn't compromised enough for doctors to care yet. Maybe in a few years I'll contract pneumonia and die because my body is too fucked up to fight it off. That's probably as

im in the exact same boat right now :( its hell.