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[ClaireBear31]

I have been working hard to get things in place. If everything continues to go as planned, my bus will depart within the next month. It is odd because I expected to feel more anxious and to have second thoughts as it got closer, but the very opposite has happened. I feel quite at peace and rather clear-headed. It has allowed me to handle some rather upsetting moments - my brain says, "None of this will matter in a month so just let it go!" and I am able to calmly walk away. My mother called me the other night and I listened to her rant for quite some time, thinking to myself the entire while, "Goodness, she wastes a lot of energy on NOTHING..." Truth be told, I wish I could have always felt so detached and disconnected.

Really one of the few things I have left is to decide whether or not to leave a note and, if I do, what to say. I feel like I should say something but I also feel that no matter what I say, some people will believe whatever they want to believe so what I have to say does not really matter... and if they won't really understand anyway, why bother?

 

[CommitSudoku]

Good job working hard to get where you are and being able to achieve peace in the knowledge of what you've decided on next. Being detached/disconnected certainly can have its perks, plus it can hurt less.
Rather than feeling like you should leave a note, is it something you want to do? Are there any words you'll never be able to say before you leave that you'd want to be around after? I agree that in the end people will think whatever they want to or whatever works best for them. So I've always thought of a note as being for me, to write what I could never say or what no one ever knew or anything else. To get anything off my chest. Of course at this point the most recent note I wrote was just a note of what should be done with some of my assets, not that it will necessarily be followed either. Anyways I'd just take the approach if it's something you want to write and leave behind or else you'll regret not saying anything, then write one. If not then there's no need. Things will go in whatever manner they happen to go regardless of how we want once we leave. We can't directly influence them anymore, after all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine it must be a relief to feel at peace with everything. I would personally choose to write a note so those left behind are not left with unanswered questions, but of course it is a personal decision whether to leave one. I wish you the best in whatever happens.