genuinely, how do ppl cut?

[cheribear]

how do people get addicted to it, even the tiniest scratches i make with a blade hurt and sting so bad i have such a low pain tolerance

 

[Kokonoe]

if you have to ask that question, then you probably shouldn't be doing that anyways. it can become a serious addiction so i would heavily advise against starting to do it in the first place.

but to answer your question, it can be different for everyone as to why they do it. for me, the physical sensation of pain replaces the emotional pain i'm trying to escape. it's also a form of self-punishment for my worthlessness. it's supposed to hurt me, i deserve it.

 

[satisosad]

idk practice LOL i was / am kind of a baby about it too but i like the scars and the blood sooo .. also i find that tiny little cat scratches sting way worse than a styro

 

[100memoryleaks]

i used to find the feeling of self-punishment to be comforting. it's hard to describe. like having a sense of control over myself. i used shaving razors and eyebrow razors. the latter cut much deeper

 

[lacedup]

this may sound weird, but if the whole process is just fascinating in a way for me. the way it forms and bleeds when i cut deep. i've been addicted for such a long time now that i don't think of the pain as much anymore.
i don't remember exactly how i became addicted, but what keeps me going is the rush.

 

[discardedshards]

how do people get addicted to it, even the tiniest scratches i make with a blade hurt and sting so bad i have such a low pain tolerance

sometimes youre just in that headspace to really motivate urself to . . it sucks n is rlly hard to stop once ure fully addicted T^T
for me tho i just put on some headphones n listen to some music so that it can distract me from the pain kinda :pp

 

[instormdrains]

if its hard to do then dont do it. I used to do it but its not a good thing to do. Its like being scared of needles and asking a guy how to use heroin. If you start cutting its only going to be a problem for you in the future stop before it becomes more severe

 

[delinquentsandwich]

it's calming to see myself bleed
the pain isn't too important for me

I don't do it anymore since cleanup is annoying
I don't recommend it

 

[oneirataxia]

Don't practice it and don't get into it. Don't make your life worse just to be recognized as worse and feel validated. That's one of the worst mistakes you could ever make. It's good that you have a low pain tolerance and can't get into this crap, keep it that way.

 

[thelostautistic]

how do people get addicted to it, even the tiniest scratches i make with a blade hurt and sting so bad i have such a low pain tolerance

Don't force yourself to do it. Once you're addicted it's really difficult to stop. I wish I'd never started. My body is a mess from this.

 

[oneirataxia]

Same lol, I tried doing it because I had no coping methods before. The blade just touching my skin hurt. A fever to me feels like death. Idk how anyone cuts, theyre really brave and strong.

I just want to add that cutting isn't "brave and strong," nor should it be treated that way. It's stupid to get into and a maladjusted cry for help that isn't virtuous in any way. You are brave and strong for enduring your problems without falling into a vice like that, and your pain is meaningful and real even if there is no physical manifestation "to show for it." You should never think lesser of yourself or think that you are less capable because you are unable to inflict physical pain upon yourself. You are strong for making the decision not to make your life more painful than it already is when everything within you tells you that it's the "deserved." I'm only saying this for your own good and I wish you the best with whatever you are facing in life.

 

[Pangs93]

Same lol, I tried doing it because I had no coping methods before. The blade just touching my skin hurt. A fever to me feels like death. Idk how anyone cuts, theyre really brave and strong.

There is nothing brave or strong about it. When people say that it sounds a lot like romanticised nonsense. I've been cutting for 20 years (on and off) and for the last 8 years have been cutting to extreme depths. Bravery or strength did not get me here. Severe mental illness did. Extreme desensitisation to both pain and survival instincts did. The constant need to see more and more and do as much damage as humanly possible. The way that I have become since I fell into extreme sh makes me feel less than human. Can't do the things I do without killing something inside yourself that made you human. The only strength and bravery I see in SH are in the ones who managed to overcome it or those who managed to resist it entirely. That actually takes strength.

 

[LastNite]

I just want to add that cutting isn't "brave and strong," nor should it be treated that way. It's stupid to get into and a maladjusted cry for help that isn't virtuous in any way. You are brave and strong for enduring your problems without falling into a vice like that, and your pain is meaningful and real even if there is no physical manifestation "to show for it." You should never think lesser of yourself or think that you are less capable because you are unable to inflict physical pain upon yourself. You are strong for making the decision not to make your life more painful than it already is when everything within you tells you that it's the "deserved." I'm only saying this for your own good and I wish you the best with whatever you are facing in life.

Yeh sorry Im terrible with talking and wording things. I just meant the tolerance of pain isnt something that Im strong enough to tolerate so they are stronger than me idk if that makes any sense or not, but I agree with you. Thanks for correcting me.

There is nothing brave or strong about it. When people say that it sounds a lot like romanticised nonsense. I've been cutting for 20 years (on and off) and for the last 8 years have been cutting to extreme depths, regularly exposing deep fascia and muscle and occasionally things like tendons. Bravery or strength did not get me here. Severe mental illness did. Extreme desensitisation to both pain and survival instincts did. The constant need to see more and more and do as much damage as humanly possible. The way that I have become since I fell into extreme sh makes me feel less than human. Can't do the things I do without killing something inside yourself that made you human. The lnly strength and bravery I see in SH are in the ones who managed to overcome it or those who managed to resist it entirely. That actually takes strength.

Im sorry I should've thought about what I wrote. I didn't mean for it to sound that way. I'll delete it if they allow to.

 

[Pangs93]

Im sorry I should've thought about what I wrote. I didn't mean for it to sound that way. I'll delete it if they allow to.

Nah you're ok! I mostly wanted to do a PSA for anyone reading that is thinking about cutting or wanting to go deeper. Its a very common sentiment but it's also a very dangerous one and too often I've seen sentiments like that lead people down the path of escalating to extreme SH. Its very sad to see, especially in young folks. It's a very miserable life. My body looks genuinely disgusting and I'm in chronic pain because of the harm I've inflicted on myself, not to mention the intense psychological distress of extreme SH ideation and compulsions. Its made life 100x worse, both physically and mentally.

 

[LastNite]

Nah you're ok! I mostly wanted to do a PSA for anyone reading that is thinking about cutting or wanting to go deeper. Its a very common sentiment but it's also a very dangerous one and too often I've seen sentiments like that lead people down the path of escalating to extreme SH. Its very sad to see, especially in young folks. It's a very miserable life. My body looks genuinely disgusting and I'm in chronic pain because of the harm I've inflicted on myself, not to mention the intense psychological distress of extreme SH ideation and compulsions. Its made life 100x worse, both physically and mentally.

I'm sorry for all of the suffering it caused you. I wish I could hug you. Sorry again and thanks. Love you