Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[Unworthyhuman]

Only wishing for the peace of permanent non-existence.
No matter what the peace of non-existence truly is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer again, all I want is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where this torturous, cruel existence is all gone and forgotten with no more suffering.

For me non-existence is just all I see as positive and is the only peace for me from the torture and cruelty of this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence that just causes all this harm and suffering, I just always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake again with no more pain and no more suffering.

the most interesting person on this site. Have always wondered about you. who you are where you live what you look like....but mostly, why haven't you ctb? You speak the words of many and I don't understand how someone that carries such weight and is intelligent doesn't ctb in all the many ways. what keeps you here? have you ever tried? what's your method?(s)

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing would make me wish for this existence so torturous.
Nothing truly would and no matter what I'd just never wish for the torture of this terrible, cruel existence rather all I want is some peace and I'll just always find it torturous to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable.

All I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, in this existence of dreadful suffering non-existence is just all I see as positive, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for for this deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as a mistake that only ever causes all this torture and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring the peace of non-existence.
For me no matter what the peace of non-existence will just always be preferable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, cruel existence no matter what, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the cruelty and suffering of this painful, dreadful existence.

For me non-existence is just the only relief, all I wish for is true permanent peace which is why I always suffer so much as a result of being trapped in this terrible, torturous existence, to suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me and there's just so much suffering in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence so cruel and torturous and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of this cruel terrible existence rather all I want is peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence so dreadful and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

I just want to be free from all suffering and it always feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the pain and cruelty of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist will always mean to suffer.
To me it truly does mean to suffer and I'll just always see this torturous, painful existence as just being suffering, all I want is peace from this existence of dreadful suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing.

I'll just always find it so painful to exist, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing, I'll just always and only hope to not exist, for me only non-existence could ever be positive, I just want to be free from all pain and suffering, I just want to never suffer again in this existence so torturous.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this terrible, cruel existence.
I truly am always so tired of being burdened with this terrible, cruel existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.

I'll just always see existence as a mistake and it's one that just causes all this torture, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, all I want is the peace of an eternal sleep, I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see this cruel, painful existence as just being only suffering, only the peace of eternal sleep could ever be positive for me no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be so torturous to me.
It truly will always be so torturous to me, all that existence ever does is just cause all this dreadful suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always prefer to permanently cease existing than suffer.

All I want is peace from the pain and suffering of this dreadful existence and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable, I just want to erase this existence so torturous and dreadful that just causes all this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the most cruel, terrible mistake to me.
It truly is the most cruel terrible mistake to me that just causes all this torture and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'll just always find it torturous to suffer in this existence, all I hope for is to be gone.

I just want peace from this existence so cruel, terrible and dreadful that just causes all this pain and suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence so torturous that just harms existing beings, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the torture of existing, I just want to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all that could ever be desirable for me.
It truly is all that could ever be desirable for me in this existence of terrible, torturous suffering and for me non-existence is just all that's positive, all I see as positive is no longer being burdened with this torturous, painful existence of suffering all for the sake of it ever again.

I just want to be free from the torture of existing and for me existence will always be the most dreadful, cruel burden that just causes all this harm and suffering, for me existence truly is always the problem and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful, for me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence could never be worth it for me.
It truly could never be worth it for me and no matter what I'd just never wish for this existence of dreadful torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake rather all I want is to be gone, I just hope for the peace of non-existence where this existence so cruel and futile is finally no longer my problem.

I truly will always prefer to not exist than suffer and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I suffer simply from this existence that could never be worth it for me, I'll just always see existence as the problem, I'll always find it so undesirable to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is just so much pain, cruelty and suffering in existing.
There truly is just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this painful, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake.

All that existence ever does is just harm and torture existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from being burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the pain of existing, I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious free from all pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be torturous to me.
It truly will always be so torturous to me and I'd just never wish for the torture of this dreadful, painful existence, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much torture in this terrible, cruel existence.

For me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence so torturous, cruel and dreadful that I just always saw as an abomination, all that existence ever does is just harm and suffering torturing existing beings and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much terrible cruelty in existing.
There truly is just so much terrible cruelty in existing and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, dreadful existence, for me non-existence is just all that's positive in this existence so terrible and torturous.

For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from all future pain and suffering in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want this existence I jus always saw as an abomination to be all forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always the problem.
It'll always be the problem to me that just causes all this torture, pain and suffering and I'll just always see existing as just being unnecessary suffering, all I want is peace, I just want to be free from this torturous, cruel existence of dreadful suffering.

For me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence so torturous that just causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer, all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can solve and bring me peace from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase this existence.
For this existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased for me is just all I hope for, all I want is peace from this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence, for me existence will just always be the problem, I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this painful, dreadful existence no matter what, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to erase this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution.
It truly is the positive solution for me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence rather all I want is some peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence of torturous suffering.

I'll just always see it as the most terrible, cruel mistake to suffer in this existence, for me existence is just always the problem, I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see this existence as just being suffering all for the sake of it, I'll just always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence of torturous suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for non-existence to bring me peace.
No matter what for non-existence to bring me peace from all torture, cruelty and suffering really is all I could hope for, I just want to be free from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'll just always see existence as the problem.

In existence of torturous, dreadful suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace, I just want to be free from this existence so dreadful and harmful that just causes all this terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I just want to be gone, I just hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to be free from all pain and suffering.
To be permanently free from all pain, cruelty and suffering is just all I hope for and is all I see as desirable, I just want peace from the suffering of this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence of dreadful suffering.

I just hope to be gone, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this painful, deeply undesirable existence, I just want all to be gone, forgotten and erased for me in non-existence, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at true peace.
I truly will only be at true peace in non-existence and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this painful, torturous existence that to me will just always be the most terrible mistake.

I just want peace from the pain and suffering of existing, all I want is to be gone, in this existence of torturous suffering non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is the only relief for me, I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to suffer.
No matter what I'd just never wish to suffer, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of this terrible, torturous and cruel existence, for me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me.

I just want to never suffer again, I just wish to be free from this cruel existence that just tortures existing beings, to exist truly does mean to suffer and I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, dreadful existence, all I want is the peace of non-existence where finally all is forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of this torturous existence.
I truly am just always so tired of this torturous existence and all I want is the peace of non-existence, I just want to be free from all dreadful unnecessary suffering in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake.

I just want peace from the torture of this painful, cruel existence, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, I only see non-existence as positive, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence, I just hope to be gone, I just wish for peace from all suffering.