Unfortunately we live in a world where those whose passion to help others has been unhelpful, care given by medical professionals is not for everyone, and that's why I am on here.
I am unsure where you are, but speaking on my experiences, speaking about CTB or even giving up and being apathetic will raise an eyebrow, i've been held against my will for a day and I was also strapped down in an ambulance and transported to a facility where I didn't get any help, just another place to sleep for a day.
If you do want to speak to someone, speak to someone you trust, or if you prefer, a medical professional.
You never know if medical professionals can help you unless you know you are the kind of person that needs a different kind of support.