If nothing else, isn't it pretty low IQ to circlejerk over her posts for the millionth time? I assume even someone with reasonable cognitive ability would be like "are you ok?" after reading the same regurgitated nonsense for the thousandth time. Either way, she has no business giving the community a message on death, and to have your overall philosophy spoon fed to you by someone like that must be embarrassing. You're drinking the Jonestown koolaid from someone a hell of a lot less charismatic than Jim Jones. Ouch.
There's absolutely nothing unique in wishing to not exist. We've all had those moments from time to time. It's about as controversial as thinking "oh shit" when your alarm goes off in the morning. And that's the point - it's a private thought, just like the decision to ctb is a private decision. We don't need some arbiter of death preaching to us or influencing anyone who might otherwise have made it through. Young and vulnerable people sign up here every day, and if they see someone like that dominating the boards and believing that's the overall message we're putting out, they're likely to take it to heart. FC exercised way too much power and control, and in a sense took away the autonomy and individuality we're all trying to protect by monopolizing the board. How someone can't see that is beyond me.