Venting fun and enjoyment

[Eternal Despair]

I've recently spoke with a normal human being about experiencing fun and enjoyment; and it's very saddening how people can not understand about how it is to be in constant despair; and how some people can just exist without problems... (oh yea also everyone has them)

The only good thing I can have is peace; which is indistinguishable from death; and the more I exist the more and more problems disallowing for me to have even that...