fucking mental breakdown over friends i miss

[walt]

i checked my ex-friend's profile who i stopped talking too because they were toxic but i saw that he had moved on and has other friends now

i basically had a breakdown and started crying because i miss the good times i spent with him, and a few others. I know that eventually i found out they were bad people, but we had so many tender moments together that I'll never get from anyone else.. and to see them just being able to easily walk it off confirms my suspicions, i never really mattered to any of them. it fuckin sucks.

im always the one to have engaged with them first, i basically carried some of these friendships, and im starting to see how much time i wasted on people who never deserved anything from me. :/

 

[NaturalBornNEET]

good on you for being strong enough to leave toxic undeserving friends first, I regret never doing that. It's heartbreaking to know people you had such fun with never cared about you as much as you cared about them

this is my experience with every friendship I've ever had, it'd always develop into me being the only one to start conversation, them never wanting to hang out and then finally them telling me to fuck off and then leaving me for other more fun friends

its made me question if friendships without extreme power imbalances even exist but I hold out hope

 

[LeavingEarly]

All I can say to prevent you from having one is that you are not alone. I lost all my friends due to my mental health and decision making.

 

[walt]

good on you for being strong enough to leave toxic undeserving friends first, I regret never doing that. It's heartbreaking to know people you had such fun with never cared about you as much as you cared about them

this is my experience with every friendship I've ever had, it'd always develop into me being the only one to start conversation, them never wanting to hang out and then finally them telling me to fuck off and then leaving me for other more fun friends

its made me question if friendships without extreme power imbalances even exist but I hold out hope

So sorry for the late reply, but I'd like to say thank you very much.

It hurts so bad that this is the way it has to be for so many people and, I'm sorry it's been even worse on you man. Some people are just so evil..

I wish you lots of luck in the future though, and you have my love!

 

[Pluto]

I have been through this on many occasions. It just seems that people follow a simple formula of using others for benefit, and discarding them when there is no benefit. And this they call love? I wish I had an answer but either way, you're not alone.

 

[Buddha.e.c]

Im glad you were able to cut off negative friendships. Nobody deserves to be treated like that .i believe that you cant get hurt if your alone but thats probably not the best advice

 

[Rational man]

'Toxic people' and yet you miss the good times!. Are you a sucker for punishment.?. Be grateful you are wiser to toxicity that slowly kills people and relations. You vd moved on and stay there becqse yesterday wont come back...good or bad. You sound younger than my 36 years but trust me. I was where you are.

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people can be very cruel and can make our lives worse, it is best to stay away from people like that. People can be very disappointing and can let us down. I believe that people like that do not deserve any attention. I wish you the best.

 

[fay13]

All I can say to prevent you from having one is that you are not alone. I lost all my friends due to my mental health and decision making.

me too

 

[Pain In The Ass]

that I'll never get from anyone else

Why is that?

 

[walt]

Why is that?

Idk how to explain it.. it's just that these experiences, having fun, making stupid jokes or playing together will never be the same to me. The guy I met shared so many interests of mine I don't usually talk about and we had a great connection.