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Black Angel

Black Angel

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Feb 20, 2025
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The most fucking helpless time is when I can't die today…and still hoping for tomr!! Finally i understand that I'm sick, sick as fuck…
Nur Alkohol lähmt meine Stimmung…Es scheint, als wäre ich allein in der Welt.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,413
This world is sick as fuck.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
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I just can't believe this feeling of being stuck. I can't believe there's no way out
 
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Black Angel

Black Angel

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Feb 20, 2025
23
I just can't believe this feeling of being stuck. I can't believe there's no way out
Yea, life is the biggest bitch for me, however I'm still envy people who can find their way out and I'm happy for them. Just on this way out list without me….😭😭😭
And I hope one day I can finally post here and tell everyone that I'm on the way to ctb….Sometimes I'm feeling I'm weak, I could jump down from buildings, or hang myself, or I could just go to the lake and sleep under the water forever…Idk why I'm still struggling here to find the painless way to do ctb there…It just fucks me so up and up…after all I never chose to come this world, they never got my permission, why can't just give me life pause button…………………..Just so sad
 
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wham311

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Mar 1, 2025
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Yea, life is the biggest bitch for me, however I'm still envy people who can find their way out and I'm happy for them. Just on this way out list without me….😭😭😭
And I hope one day I can finally post here and tell everyone that I'm on the way to ctb….Sometimes I'm feeling I'm weak, I could jump down from buildings, or hang myself, or I could just go to the lake and sleep under the water forever…Idk why I'm still struggling here to find the painless way to do ctb there…It just fucks me so up and up…after all I never chose to come this world, they never got my permission, why can't just give me life pause button…………………..Just so sad
There isn't one. These pages are filled with trapped, desperate people. When we give up we just socialize, and use the idea of our demise as a coping mechanism to help us believe one day the suffering will end
 
Black Angel

Black Angel

Member
Feb 20, 2025
23
There isn't one. These pages are filled with trapped, desperate people. When we give up we just socialize, and use the idea of our demise as a coping mechanism to help us believe one day the suffering will end
While you mentioned this, it tears me up, just feeling helpless😩😩😩😩😩
 
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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
599
The most fucking helpless time is when I can't die today…and still hoping for tomr!! Finally i understand that I'm sick, sick as fuck…
Nur Alkohol lähmt meine Stimmung…Es scheint, als wäre ich allein in der Welt.
Es tut mir so leid, was Sie durchmachen müssen. Ich hoffe, Sie finden den Frieden, den Sie verdienen. ❤️‍🩹
 

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