StolenLife
Warlock
- Sep 19, 2022
- 740
I am so sick and tired. I went to my Uni town to study and now I can't study because of insomnia. Even here it doesn't feel like home. Where the hell is my home??? I am lonely here but I cannot find friends or a partner because I look 40 at 23 due to constant stress for the last few years and also due to my depressed and frankly awful personality and trauma. I picked this career, among other things, to be able to provide for my family and have a decent housing situation and it came to bite me in the ass. I do not understand a single thing in biochemistry(only one subject), and yet there's no alternative career. No matter what I try, I cannot get a good ending of my life, I feel like I'm cursed. I cannot even retreat into fictional works anymore because fictional characters have romantic relationships which I cannot have due to trauma and things I wrote earlier. Someone kill me please God kill me I shouldn't have been a coward I should have finished the business and jumped off a bridge way back in october.
