Fuck this. i'm done.

[Metavoid]

Meta...I know this feel.
Classic BPD.
First, FUCK HIM and his mental illness shaming. Hes the manipulative psychopath.
If you need someone to latch onto so you can dump him (Need new Favorite Person?) Hit me up. Ill take one for the team so you can psychologically disengage from him.
I JUST went through some abusive traumatic shit like this myself with a guy.. I got your back.
Just know, I work crazy long hours 7 days a week...but I will try to answer messages as much as I can.

Aw thank you that means a lot x

 

[faex42]

I'm scared I'll never get over him and will forever be haunted by feelings of regret and anger that it didn't work and what could have been. I'm scared of the heartbreak. I've been in long relationships before but left when things started going bad and was stronger. Now I feel like I'm trapped and can't leave

I recall those feelings all too well. I was trapped, almost a prisoner. I blamed her because she knew how to manipulate me in so many different ways, not just sex. Sex was only one of her minor tools of torment. . I blamed myself for being a fool.

Personally, when people say they have they're having problems breaking up with someone, I never say anything unless the person is in physical danger. I might try to help them discuss it but I know they alone will make the decision when they are prepared. My own past helplessness taught me humility. This could be a disastrous thing to write because we all are different and what worked for me may not work for someone else. So please take it as simply my experience.

 

[Gainax]

Ask yourself, do long distance relationships work?

A relationship requires physical contact like a kiss, a touch, a hug (with cookies) and sex ,
almost on daily basis, otherwise its not a romantic relationship its just a friendship (in your case.. with benefits)

do you believe he's not getting those from another women?
does he believe you're not getting those from another men?
can you move in with him or can he move in with you, so that both can be close to one another?


my advice..move on with your life a seek someone that lives and works close to you, but if you're still thinking of suicide seek help first, don't break a men heart with your death, no one deserves that.