Fuck my strong survival instinct.

[bellaisdonewithlife]

I've lived through things many people wouldn't be able to endure and I probably shouldn't have done that. Why subject yourself to endless suffering for years especially since the young age of 18? Fuck the human survival instinct.

I'm working on a project trying to distract myself when it keeps getting harder to stay alive. It's not working… I keep thinking about dying. I might have to drop it soon and be done with this. I don't know. I don't understand the point of human existence.

 

[unluckysadness]

I could have written your post. it's exactly the same for me. Very strong SI. It doesn't make sense because I've endured so many hellish things and I'm still here in constant physical and mental pain. A part of my sick brain thinks a miracle can still happen. Perfect nonsense.
I hope we'll find peace soon.

 

[itsgone2]

. I don't understand the point of human existence.

What if for people like us, there isn't a point.
We're extras.
Fine but let us leave.
And the world crumbles around us.

 

[Ben111]

i just want to die

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

I could have written your post. it's exactly the same for me. Very strong SI. It doesn't make sense because I've endured so many hellish things and I'm still here in constant physical and mental pain. A part of my sick brain thinks a miracle can still happen. Perfect nonsense.
I hope we'll find peace soon.

Oh man. I don't have physical pain, but I have other physical symptoms and mental symptoms. Take care of yourself. I hope we'll find peace soon too.

What if for people like us, there isn't a point.
We're extras.
Fine but let us leave.
And the world crumbles around us.

I mean, I guess the only two options are either there is a point or there isn't one. I lean towards there being some point to this, but I also realize it's possible there's a chance this is all pointless.