Venting FUCK!!!! FUCKFUCKFUCK

[ctbcat]

Siked myself up all day. Today's the day I get the rope! It's late, but I can still get the rope today?

... I pussied out because it meant a little bit of navigation on my end.

I went out and everything. Got dressed... What the hell is wrong with me? :(

... I need to die ... It's not even a SI thing that's the issue - just pure and utter sloth - laziness. The world never bends to my whims, especially now, and I should get used to it

I'll try find something rope-esque tonight, but I'm full hanging, so I don't know how well that shit'll work...I'm gonna attempt tonight, at least. I'll grasp at any straw I can.

It's times like this where I am especially frustrated about situations like no euthanasia and the amount of hoops you have to jump through to put an end to YOUR OWN life. It's all a sick sort of joke.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel frustrated, I find it to be extreme cruelty how people have to resort to methods like this in the first place and cannot have the option to be euthanised. It's hellish to me how we have to struggle so much to die but anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[Dliena]

It really is such a cruel joke how even in 2024 we still can't have more humane/guaranteed ways of CTB I mean we are not barbarians anymore. I just wish people especially
the ones in power would just get with the times already. But I sincerely apologize for my ramble OP and I can only hope that even with dire circumstance eventually the effort can somehow pay off and you'll get to have all the everlasting peace you could ever want/need.