Venting Fuck Everything

[deathisnear]

FUCK this world. Fuck it's rudeness. Fuck it's ungratefulness. Fuck it's ugliness. Fuck it's emptiness.
FUCK Covid. Fuck the lockdowns. Fuck the isolation. Fuck the restrictions. Fuck the masks.
FUCK depression. Fuck anxiety. Fuck my mental illnesses. FUCK LIFE.

The only thing that comforts me is my suicidal thoughts, my suicidal ideation that I am going to turn into reality.
They never lie to me, they are always there for me, they always tell me the truth.
That I want to die. That I need to die. That I will die. By my own hand.

Alot of people think that people who commit suicide "lost the battle" when in fact it's the complete opposite.
When I commit suicide, I WIN. I get to leave this fucked up world, I get the peace I seek.

And make no mistake, I will win. Maybe not today, maybe bot tomorrow, but I WILL WIN. Death is coming for me ... and I'm READY.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is horrible. There is so much wrong with being alive. I want absolutely nothing to do with life and I do not want to participate in it. In death there is true peace and there is no more suffering. It is terrible how we were forced to exist. We were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. I hope you find what you are looking for. I also feel comforted by suicidal thoughts, for me suicide is the only thing that makes sense.

 

[The Divine Comedy]

Emotionally blackmailed into a continued existance of suffering - this is the true nature of our form.

 

[deathisnear]

This life really is horrible. There is so much wrong with being alive. I want absolutely nothing to do with life and I do not want to participate in it. In death there is true peace and there is no more suffering. It is terrible how we were forced to exist. We were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. I hope you find what you are looking for. I also feel comforted by suicidal thoughts, for me suicide is the only thing that makes sense.

I couldn't agree more with everything you said. The only comfort to me is the suicidal thoughts because I know they are true to me. I know on the other side of suicide is the peace i so desperately seeks is awaiting me. I can't wait to finally get it. Hopefully soon.

 

[yive]

FUCK this world.

A lot of people think that people who commit suicide "lost the battle" when in fact it's the complete opposite.
When I commit suicide, I WIN. I get to leave this fucked up world, I get the peace I seek.

And make no mistake, I will win. Maybe not today, maybe bot tomorrow, but I WILL WIN. Death is coming for me ... and I'm READY.

exactly, well said. i think the same way

 

[deathisnear]

exactly, well said

I can't wait to WIN.

 

[stellabelle]

FUCK this world. Fuck it's rudeness. Fuck it's ungratefulness. Fuck it's ugliness. Fuck it's emptiness.
FUCK Covid. Fuck the lockdowns. Fuck the isolation. Fuck the restrictions. Fuck the masks.
FUCK depression. Fuck anxiety. Fuck my mental illnesses. FUCK LIFE.

The only thing that comforts me is my suicidal thoughts, my suicidal ideation that I am going to turn into reality.
They never lie to me, they are always there for me, they always tell me the truth.
That I want to die. That I need to die. That I will die. By my own hand.

Alot of people think that people who commit suicide "lost the battle" when in fact it's the complete opposite.
When I commit suicide, I WIN. I get to leave this fucked up world, I get the peace I seek.

And make no mistake, I will win. Maybe not today, maybe bot tomorrow, but I WILL WIN. Death is coming for me ... and I'm READY.

I can understand that.
I hate that feeling but you know. I'm there too. That too many things have gone on for too long and it's just piled up to be too much.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

Yup, I feel all of this. Life just isn't for us.

 

[Risperdead]

I feel you sir. this world with its inhabitants does not invite you to stay.
these circumstances are brought about consciously which shows once more what kind of scum humanity is.
do your shit on your own, all alone tyrants.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Fuck everything, fuck god, fuck his world

 

[TheHatedOne]

I feel this with every fiber of my being. (except for the masks cause it covers my ugliness)

 

[Passersby]

This is how I feel right now too. So sick and tired of this bullshit. Fuck it all. So tired of suffering with no means to an end. Fuck being disabled too. Fuck all that and all the damn suffering. I need to CT fucking bus and be done with this life. Fuck this.

 

[ikadasui]

I feel this with every fiber of my being. (except for the masks cause it covers my ugliness)

I've never felt better going out then I do now with the mask on. At least it blocks a good 60% of my fucked up monstrous face

 

[Broadland]

I've never felt better going out then I do now with the mask on. At least it blocks a good 60% of my fucked up monstrous face

Same. Although my upper face's pretty bad too, but at least bangs and glasses mostly help with that. It's nice not having some people gawk at me in public anymore because they can't believe a human face can look the way mine does and I also don't really get any dirty looks anymore when I speak to people.
I really hope masks stay socially acceptable for as long as possible.

 

[Passersby]

Once you get to the point of no return you will know it. Sad life? Sure is. You will know. Some and many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many things in this world are just NOT fixable. That brings me back to revisit this post. So yes Fuck Everything!! Once your here and going to ctb then nothing matters anymore. Fuck Everything!

 

[deathisnear]

Once you get to the point of no return you will know it. Sad life? Sure is. You will know. Some and many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many many things in this world are just NOT fixable. That brings me back to revisit this post. So yes Fuck Everything!! Once your here and going to ctb then nothing matters anymore. Fuck Everything!

Next week is my time to finally officially say fuck everything and CTB :)
Next week is it ... finally I will ctb.

 

[Niirvana]

Thank you, reading this post helps me to face the idea that soon I will be no more

 

[oddetoad]

great read