frustrated how many people who dont want to die are killed while those who want to aren't

[hopscotch]

it's so frustrating to be in a world where every day people who want to live are killed through car crashes and shootings and accidents and a billion different things, and yet ive lived 20+ years without a single damn thing happening to me. when i was in high school i wished so badly to die in a school shooting and it never happened, and instead of me children who had a future ahead of them were killed indiscriminately. i wish i could make my wish for death useful and take it upon myself someone else's death, to save at least one person, if that makes sense. but instead that all happens to people who probably want to keep living, meanwhile the only way to relieve my pain is to make other people hurt and to die a useless death. it's all so frustrating.

 

[Nikitatos]

It is crazy. I read a story this weekend about a 14 year old dropping dead while playing soccer. Seems like a nice way to go. Backwards though. She probably wanted to live.

 

[karlyla]

Completely agree! You hear over and over about how life is fleeting and you need to treasure it because you never know when you might die but it seems like the freak accidents and unforeseen brain aneurysms only happen to those with reason to live.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as in my case I only wish to cease existing, it feels like I've suffered for so long, I'm so tired of suffering in this cruel existence that brought me nothing but pain, only eternal nothingness is desirable to me, I find it so painful and dreadful to be trapped in this existence I never would have chose just hoping to be gone.

 

[yariousvamp]

I keep thinking about my brother that was aborted before he was born due to the abuse that mom indured, which caused a miscarriage, I wish it was me instead.

I was almost miscarried too, why the fuck did I survive and make it to this shit world.

 

[astonishedturnip]

It is honestly so fucked up to me. Young parents, little kids, teenagers with their whole lives in front of them, babies, productive adults planning their weddings... Especially with 9/11 anniversary coming up, thousands of people who wanted to live, taken away for no reason. Especially while evil people continue to haunt our planet.

I would donate my life to them in an INSTANT. Frankly it's unfair they get the illness that takes them away in 3 days or randomly dying in their sleep or dropping dead midsentence. They should be here thriving, let me take the death instead.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

It's so unfair. Why is it that others get to die early? Why can't it be me? My sister died from a cardiac arrest but I don't feel any sadness or grief. Instead I feel envy at how she died yet I didn't. I don't want to be alive. There's nothing in life that I desire

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

So relatable. I wish I could give up my life to someone who wants to live. I would give my life for a total stranger, I would give my life to prevent a rat from dying. But I can't even do that, my death will mean absolutely nothing.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

I think of this everyday now and feel the same

 

[Dayrain]

@hopscotch Absolutely agree. Keeping that same frustration for many, many years now. Thank you for this thread.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Let's say someone is disabled or with cancer or can't work and is going to become homeless . They can beg these government or medical monsters forever and they will never let them buy nembutal or the services of someone assisting in suicide. Is that logical rational fair or evil oppression? It's evil oppression

It's nobody else's business if I want to kill myself and buy nembutal or the services of someone assisting me in suicide. Plus Im going to die anyway just like every other human will: wtf don't these monsters get about the fact that we are all going to die anyway and life is short as anyone over 40 can tell u

On top of that everything is meaningless except avoiding excruciating unbearable pain or extreme suffering.no one can convince me that I should think anything else is good important meaningful or valuable including evil life and everything else in this evil world

They have purposefully almost eliminated nembutal from the world and made it a crime . They made every guaranteed suicide method like someone else helping u with suicide a crime . Just as in the supremely evil U.S. they are about to ban SN . They made suicide booths , nembutal, cyanide capsules, helping in suicide, etc crimes . The only reason is because they thought people would use nembutal and these other methods for suicide. Think about how insane this. This is how evil and irrational and brainwashed the people running this world are . Just for this reason the extreme suicide prohibition state they created is enough reason for me to want to suicide asap .

It's ok to give it to dogs who are in pain but humans gave to suffer for no reason.

It's even more insane because we are all going to die anyway.

Plus imo a human is just 30 trillion cells same as mouse a fly a bug . But with the abomination of a brain that can suffer long lasting constant unbearable pain

 

[Ironborn]

Friend of mine passed away from cancer a couple months back, left behind wife and three kids.
I'd have traded places with him in a heartbeat.