Venting From now on my only goal is to kill myself.

[Mors.Mors.Mors]

I tried it all. Healed my trauma. Saw allucinations. Tried religion. Healed part of my anxiety but I have fucked up so bad my health that I have made my own life unlivable. It was all my fault and I'm taking ownership of all this shit by finally acepting that it's over. There's nothing more to do. I'm tired of being immature and indecisive with my life decisions, so I have gained finally the strength to do it. I will try until I achieve this final goal.

Good luck to everyone trying to ctb. I hope it all goes well and the pain comes to and end.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Trying to ctb this year to find my peace (and want out of this dumb world too), been suicidal for years passively, been active two years ago, before all that, been encouraged to live for myself, not because of stupid false dumb advice from dumb morons, tried c religion, spirituality (the more modern sense of capitalism and not ancient practices that is so rare to light work and study spiritual practices more), groups, therapy, meds, and even dating, while having motivations and goals… life isn't for everyone and it's okay. I'm with you and hope we find our peace soon. It's impossible to accept this world the most though through all of what we've gone through, and I truly wanted to live, but it's equally hard when you have been felt with a lot and your life can never be fixed… I just wished people saw the reality up close, especially for those who have lost themselves, and I've lost myself twice in two years suffering traumatic abuse from the world :')) it's not fun being here

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom from the pain you search for, I wish you the best.