Discussion Frightened of everything?

[Fadeawaaaay]

I used to be relatively confident or at least could pretend… Now everything is frightening… I can't read the news… Leaving my apartment… Talking to other people… only safe thing is sleeping… I have infantilized myself…

 

[Foresight]

This happened to me as well. It takes a lot to heal but it's possible. My start to healing was not trying to think through solutions but to focus on body work. Thinking just created racing thoughts which turned into psychosis.


Small vagus nerve exercises and yoga. You can tell your body you're safe instead of trying to convince a traumatized mind. The body talks comfort to the mind better than it talks to itself.

I allowed rest and forgiveness for this fear taking over. I think we all have a right to be a little scared in this fucking world.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do find existence to be terrifying, the thought of having to deal with this life for many more years brings me so much anxiety. I think the reason why living can be so scary is because this life is unpredictable and uncertain and things could easily get a lot worse with no limit as to how much we can suffer.

I wish that I never existed at all as life is just unnecessary pain and problems that I want nothing to do with. This is also why the thought of non existence brings me so much comfort as nothing can hurt me once I am gone and I will be free from all suffering.

 

[hellispink]

I feel like anxiety and fear have consumed me. I feel eaten alive by my own head .

 

[Ligottian]

I was born to fear.
- Thomas Ligotti

 

[Rational man]

I think the world has become ugly in so many ways. Fear is often the central theme . Im even considering the possibility that Putin's rockets may land in my region before i have time to reconnect with nature. I wish you peac e

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I think the world has become ugly in so many ways. Fear is often the central theme . Im even considering the possibility that Putin's rockets may land in my region before i have time to reconnect with nature. I wish you peac e

Are you in Ukraine? That would be frightening

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yeh I hear ya. Years ago I used to wonder wth was wrong with people who got anxiety or "triggered" or whatever. Now I'm probably worse than most, can't even watch the TV half the time because I feel such anxiety over medical things and they come up a lot on the TV. It's triggering to read about CTB as well but I have to it's my only way out of the hell I'm feeling.

 

[Rational man]

Are you in Ukraine? That would be frighteningNo

Are you in Ukraine? That would be frightening

No, England but his Nukes are aimed at London. One of Putins henchmen is quoted as saying that London will he the first target in a nuke strike. I don't believe its a bluff.

 

[Ash’Girl]

My anxiety has me similarly stuck. I've been able to somewhat push through to get to the store when needed, but only really because of nicotine cravings, and I am freaking out the whole way, even with supposed anti anxiety meds. My body is stuck in fight or flight mode, everything is scary and confusing. I have gone through periods of anxiety, social phobia and panic attacks intermittently for most of my life, but the catalyst for me here was the sudden and unexpected death of the person who helped to consistently anchor me. Since then absolutely everything triggers me and it's not easing up, no matter what I do.

I feel for you. It is hell to battle with our own brains every moment of the day.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

My anxiety has me similarly stuck. I've been able to somewhat push through to get to the store when needed, but only really because of nicotine cravings, and I am freaking out the whole way, even with supposed anti anxiety meds. My body is stuck in fight or flight mode, everything is scary and confusing. I have gone through periods of anxiety, social phobia and panic attacks intermittently for most of my life, but the catalyst for me here was the sudden and unexpected death of the person who helped to consistently anchor me. Since then absolutely everything triggers me and it's not easing up, no matter what I do.

I feel for you. It is hell to battle with our own brains every moment of the day.

Years ago i used to live across the street from this house that was always dark… The lawn was overgrown and the place was falling apart. There was a broken down car in the driveway. At night a light would come on inside for a few hours. I always wondered who lived there because I never saw anybody come in or out. I figured it was some retired shut in weirdo. Now I am that person.

 

[Ash’Girl]

Years ago i used to live across the street from this house that was always dark… The lawn was overgrown and the place was falling apart. There was a broken down car in the driveway. At night a light would come on inside for a few hours. I always wondered who lived there because I never saw anybody come in or out. I figured it was some retired shut in weirdo. Now I am that person.

There's a song that goes "I'm on the outside, I'm looking in" and it's pretty much how I feel when I go outside. I see all these people who are laughing, joking, seemingly enjoying life and I'm outside of it all not able to feel anything but terror, sadness or… sometimes nothing at all. The emptiness and the nothingness is almost a blessing at times because at least I'm not in sensory overload. But going outside is extra hard, because seeing people who live and experience life in a way that's seemingly unattainable just triggers me more. I think I just never feel "safe" but it's not that there's anything specific or tangible that I know I'm afraid of. Nothing and everything. I just prefer to be invisible away from anyone and anything. I don't know if that makes sense at all.

 

[lights_are_on]

No, England but his Nukes are aimed at London. One of Putins henchmen is quoted as saying that London will he the first target in a nuke strike. I don't believe its a bluff.

Never gonna happen, don't worry about it

 

[toasterbath]

Yeah I think I gave myself agoraphobia and get overloaded by sensory too just by being shut in for so long.

 

[MindFog]

I imagine the guilt you must also feel along it. Like you've let yourself drown into your sea of anxiety and fear.

These days I've been feeling the same way. Too much that I hunker down in my room in the slightest noise.


Baby steps. It's always baby steps.

You have to find something to hold on to, no matter how small it is. It could a place if you want.

It's not much have you tried sitting outside at night (on a safe location)? For me, the cold air and lessened crowd helps a bit. The panic will still be there but just sitting still outside can calm you down. I hope your neighborhood's peaceful.

Maybe a park where there's trees. Try doing it in increments. 5, 10, 15 minutes.

I hope you find your island. Or at least a drift wood you can hang into. I know i'm still finding mine.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

There's a song that goes "I'm on the outside, I'm looking in" and it's pretty much how I feel when I go outside. I see all these people who are laughing, joking, seemingly enjoying life and I'm outside of it all not able to feel anything but terror, sadness or… sometimes nothing at all. The emptiness and the nothingness is almost a blessing at times because at least I'm not in sensory overload. But going outside is extra hard, because seeing people who live and experience life in a way that's seemingly unattainable just triggers me more. I think I just never feel "safe" but it's not that there's anything specific or tangible that I know I'm afraid of. Nothing and everything. I just prefer to be invisible away from anyone and anything. I don't know if that makes sense at all.

I've felt like that all my life, even before I had actual anxiety or anything. I just felt overly sensitive and vulnerable-I don't know why, I was lucky enough not to get bullied or anything but I was always slightly apart from everyone else in some way. I did have a small number of friends but not as many as most people and I was alone quite a bit (probably my own choice). Then once I was a teenager every time I'd go into town or somewhere I'd think everyone was staring at me. Now I totally hide away from everyone.