friends? (NOT PARTNERS)

[su1c1dal-dungeon]

i was wondering if anyone wanted to be friends (not a suicide pact, actual friends).

im 22f, i work 12-hr over night shifts (7pm-7am) as a mental health tech, play trivia on wednesdays, and i have one (1) friend irl.

i drink and recently started smoking weed again. i have a history with "harder" drugs such as cocaine and opioids; which i desperately want to take again. i love CNS depressants.

i dont know what else to say. im diagnosed with depression, anxiety, panic disorder, and borderline personality disorder.

ive been in therapy on and off since i was 13. ive been on my current meds (wellbutrin and lamictal) for about 2 years and recently abilify (about 1 year).

this time last year i tried to OD on trazodone and klonopin and ended up in the psych ward for 8 days. i know ODing isnt ideal (and success is very rare) but its something ive been fixated on since 12.

so friends?

 

[MourningFlower]

I get busy and forget to check this/that I even have an account here fairly often, but you're welcome to chat if/when you wish.

 

[usernamesarehard]

22f as well, 1 irl friend as well
work 2pm to 10 pm m-f
never done drugs before, too scared to actually try to get them
just depressed
also taking wellbutrin hope to be adding zoloft soon
never made an attempt, too scared
pms are always open, some days I try to not visit this site in an attempt to make some kind of recovery, but I do still come here most days

 

[ChainedCrow]

U can also make a post here (its a link to a megathread here on forum i just realized it looks kinda sketchy) so it will get more attention and bigger chance someone wants to pm you :). Other than that much love and good luck in finding friends

 

[gonesoon!]

I would love to find friends but I'm not sure you'd want to be friends with me. Im 24m. Although I am diagnosed with some of the same stuff. Im diagnosed with bipolar, avoidant personality disorder, and panic disorder. I also took harder drugs in the past but it was mostly benzos and psychedelics. I dont take any meds now. Im new to this website so i dont know the difference between a chat and a conversation. I will leave it up to you if you want to message me

 

[ashestoashxs]

id love to have genuine online friends... 19, work 8-4/9-5 EST (depending on how im feeling) m-f
I mostly drink/smoke weed but I enjoy mushrooms from time to time and have dabbled in opioids and uppers but very very rarely. I have diagnosed BPD and its been very severe lately.. and likely re-developing anorexia... first time I tried to ctb i was 16 and OD'd on acetaminophen. I want to die but can't do it myself bc of guilt.