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Amor
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- Sep 25, 2022
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There are two major concerns I have:
1- actually being able to drink it down
2- the time in between ingestion and passing out.
Those two things worry me so much. That's when it's time to put up or shut up.
Maybe you have an advantage because you've already overcame SI, you've done this before so you have been able to get the "poison" down? What's your backup plan?
I think, from the research I've done, the medical reports and suicide books, mixing the drugs with food or drink doesn't really make them useless, although if it's mixed with food like ice cream or pudding it may take longer to act, but it still works. And when mixed with drinks it works too, the user on here who mixed the drugs with the strawberry juice said she lost consciousness in less than 20 minutes, I think. Another user who took propranolol said she fell asleep in around 30 minutes or something. So mixing the drugs with sugar or juice probably won't make them useless, no? After I take it, waiting to lose consciousness will be the least of my worries, not vomiting will be the most important thing.
I definitely don't think I've overcome survival instinct or if that's possible, I'm just ignoring it. I know that going about things emotionally will always fail, so I try to ignore everything I may be feeling and thinking and focus only on doing it.
My backup plan is chloroquine. I have 25 grams of it stashed and hidden already. I don't want to fail, I intend to do this properly, but there's only so much preparation I can do and I can't predict what's going to happen after I take the drugs, so as a way to calm myself I got these drugs too. My biggest problem after I woke up was how to try to kill myself again, I tried hanging and strangling myself and it's so much harder than it seems. So I did this. It does work, the highest dose survived has been 19.5 grams, but it's not sedating and there's an ever higher chance of vomiting. And those pills are about the worst tasting ones there are.