hahahahhkjsk
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- Apr 17, 2026
- 42
hi so as the title says
um
i voluntarily admitted myself on june 1 monday and was accepted at 12:43 so basically at noon right after lunch
because i was gonna ctb if i didn't admit myself
had to admit myself to separate myself from the outer world so i couldn't harm myself (and the ward pretty much did that i don't really have any complaints)
closed ward so it was just one hallway and the rooms and we only left to the open ward when there was something we could do in the open ward like arts and crafts or go to the library but that was twice a week
and also for the judicial review on Friday June 5
which meant that these lawyers would ask you questions on how you got there why you are there whats up now
to determine whether you are kept there legally (with a solid reason as to why you can't be released just yet) or not which meant that you'd be released same day
and it was in a conference room right outside the door of the closed ward in the territory of the open ward if that makes sense
longest 192 hours of my life
was released june 9 13:21 or 1:21pm
my current time is 0:25 or 12:25pm (?) idk but after midnight so its june 10 here now
and
officially got a borderline diagnosis
no meds
got nothing
bc i went in there for a psychological crisis and they had no idea what was wrong with me beyond what i said with what i came in
got a psychologist now
will regularly meet with her i guess
um i think thats the end of my ideations and desires to ctb
pretty much my desire to die died in that ward xd
if anyones interested in asking me questions or anything i think ill check the site to answer
really only what the ward was like is interesting maybe
and the 4 days leading up to monday is a doozy ill have to type it out
ill still keep my account i don't wanna deactivate or log out maybe i will check it as a diary bc i think my posts are useful for my own psychoanalysis as well
sorry if i sound disinterested its just idk what to say rn
pretty much i want to live i realised that bc everything finally clicked into place when it comes to why im the way i am and i don't feel like explaining its enough that i have the full picture now
and bpd is just a small part of this one big thing
um
i voluntarily admitted myself on june 1 monday and was accepted at 12:43 so basically at noon right after lunch
because i was gonna ctb if i didn't admit myself
had to admit myself to separate myself from the outer world so i couldn't harm myself (and the ward pretty much did that i don't really have any complaints)
closed ward so it was just one hallway and the rooms and we only left to the open ward when there was something we could do in the open ward like arts and crafts or go to the library but that was twice a week
and also for the judicial review on Friday June 5
which meant that these lawyers would ask you questions on how you got there why you are there whats up now
to determine whether you are kept there legally (with a solid reason as to why you can't be released just yet) or not which meant that you'd be released same day
and it was in a conference room right outside the door of the closed ward in the territory of the open ward if that makes sense
longest 192 hours of my life
was released june 9 13:21 or 1:21pm
my current time is 0:25 or 12:25pm (?) idk but after midnight so its june 10 here now
and
officially got a borderline diagnosis
no meds
got nothing
bc i went in there for a psychological crisis and they had no idea what was wrong with me beyond what i said with what i came in
got a psychologist now
will regularly meet with her i guess
um i think thats the end of my ideations and desires to ctb
pretty much my desire to die died in that ward xd
if anyones interested in asking me questions or anything i think ill check the site to answer
really only what the ward was like is interesting maybe
and the 4 days leading up to monday is a doozy ill have to type it out
ill still keep my account i don't wanna deactivate or log out maybe i will check it as a diary bc i think my posts are useful for my own psychoanalysis as well
sorry if i sound disinterested its just idk what to say rn
pretty much i want to live i realised that bc everything finally clicked into place when it comes to why im the way i am and i don't feel like explaining its enough that i have the full picture now
and bpd is just a small part of this one big thing
