Venting forgot how good cutting feels

[mafuyu]

title. i haven't done it in a bit, but something triggered me and i've done it a couple times now and it's cool. a good way to release the hatred i have for myself. there's a lot of reasons behind it but too personal for here. can't believe i started this shit over a decade ago.

 

[kaitekat23]

I felt this, I began cutting when I was 12. It was here and there and managed to get clean from it not much soon after. I relasped here and there but nothing major, until this past summer. I've been clean for about 6 months; the urges are there, I unfortunetly feel like I'll likely relaspe before CTB. I'm realizing the longer I don't do it, the more I hate myself. I'm sorry you feel that way about yourself. I know nothing I say will fill that for you but I hope you're alright

 

[mafuyu]

I felt this, I began cutting when I was 12. It was here and there and managed to get clean from it not much soon after. I relasped here and there but nothing major, until this past summer. I've been clean for about 6 months; the urges are there, I unfortunetly feel like I'll likely relaspe before CTB. I'm realizing the longer I don't do it, the more I hate myself. I'm sorry you feel that way about yourself. I know nothing I say will fill that for you but I hope you're alright

thanks<3 i had my phases, i'd do it for a while, maybe go a year without, and then do it again. basically how it's gone my whole life. it's never anything too deep or needing medical intervention, never got infected. kinda wish it wasn't stigmatized like damn who cares that i hurt myself, it's not you lol. I just wish I could end it.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Havent cut in years. But i do think about how good it felt when I used to. The kind of relief that nothing else gave me. Put my mind its place when nothing else would. I dont recommend it to anyone else. But I understand the feeling of satisfaction

 

[meltdown]

It's a release I crave constantly. It makes me feel like I can breathe fully. A year-ish clean though. Now it feels like missing a friend.

 

[elliestxttoo]

been battling going back to it, thinking of starting it again to release something i guess? i dont want to but something in me wants to at the same time. its a hard fight

 

[Angel of Spades]

this was actually a reminder i needed — i'm unhealthily obsessed with the scars it leaves behind (i never cut very deep, so i end up with very shallow, white-line scars) and lately i've been having a REALLY hard time... i might end up relapsing some time soon.

 

[Burden_Bailey]

I do it because of self-hatred too! Nice to see I'm not the only one.

 

[notherenotnow]

Real. I havent done it in over 2 months as i was forced to stop, but i cannot stop thinking about how good it felt. Im going to cut myself tonight, my freedom be damned. I dont give a fuck about whether someone finds out or not.

 

[mafuyu]

It's a release I crave constantly. It makes me feel like I can breathe fully. A year-ish clean though. Now it feels like missing a friend.

i don't understand why people think it's such a bad thing to do maybe i'm weird but like. i've never needed stitches and i'm clean so i've never had an infection. not sure why that's not a sufficient way to cope.

been battling going back to it, thinking of starting it again to release something i guess? i dont want to but something in me wants to at the same time. its a hard fight

i have my moments where i'll do it for a bit and then forget it

this was actually a reminder i needed — i'm unhealthily obsessed with the scars it leaves behind (i never cut very deep, so i end up with very shallow, white-line scars) and lately i've been having a REALLY hard time... i might end up relapsing some time soon.

heyyy doesn't cut deep gang! i've never felt the need to, thankfully. i can't afford hospital bills like that lol. i used to be obsessed with it too. i was in the ER in july for an attempt and the woman there looked at my wrist and very nastily said "oh, you used to cut yourself." such an odd thing to point out

I do it because of self-hatred too! Nice to see I'm not the only one.

i think it's moderately common, if that helps you feel any better:)

Real. I havent done it in over 2 months as i was forced to stop, but i cannot stop thinking about how good it felt. Im going to cut myself tonight, my freedom be damned. I dont give a fuck about whether someone finds out or not.

see i give a fuck because i'm not going back to the loony bin