Discussion For weed smokers - Random thoughts when High

[bloodmania]

i actually smoked for the first time yesterday and i dont think i felt any different from before i did it . like i knew i was high because i had cotton mouth but my thoughts and every sensation was the exact same as always . the people i smoked with said that it made them calm and helped with anxiety which confused me because if anything i was a bit more paranoid than i usually am but that was the only change i noticed

 

[nobody_oac]

I usually masturbate when I smoke. The orgasms are awesome XD anyone else does that?

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

This is so true ... and now apparently this Government wants to push for a bill that it can be used only for medicinal purposes. Such bs!


Think I understand, you almost became one with weed, or it's a part of you? Truly sorry for the pain, that you needed weed growing up, but also glad you had it. You're not being negative, I think it's more being realistic, thanks for sharing. I started drinking at age 13 and most of my life was spent in an intoxicated haze. I'm glad I'm only on weed now. And while I appreciate weed, it can surely intensify feelings and over time, especially if overdone, I've experienced almost a lost sense of reality, but also in a good way.


I used to drink, then luckily discovered the plant, and a whole new sense of reality, ... and unreality at times.


I love it too, and it definitely amps things up! As for paranoia, like @Blueberry Panic mentioned above, panic attacks can kick in, for me this happens when I overdo it, or haven't had any in quite a while and I underestimate the quantity.


I love your thinking. Actually, I've had some pretty weird food combos, and they turned out yummy-licious! Thanks for bringing back good mems, I recall crackers with all kinds of toppings as a start. Your random thought about SN makes perfect sense to me too!

To all fellow weed lovers and @PrismHon @lynnschronicles @imtiredasf, if you haven't seen this clip already, enjoy.

So yeah that's a good way to put it. It's is like it is a part of me. I can never see myself stopping. But I love smoking so much even now. I can also see the damage it has done I'm sorry about your struggle with alcohol. I used to drink but now I hate it. It's probably because all it has brought me was more pain. Yeah I agree with you about weed. It's a hard subject to explain isn't it!

Sending hugs your way

 

[FadingSnowFake]

i actually smoked for the first time yesterday and i dont think i felt any different from before i did it . like i knew i was high because i had cotton mouth but my thoughts and every sensation was the exact same as always . the people i smoked with said that it made them calm and helped with anxiety which confused me because if anything i was a bit more paranoid than i usually am but that was the only change i noticed

Mm, maybe give it another shot if you want? My first time was similar to yours, but also, I was afraid to "let go". The next time, years later, I was with someone I trusted and since then I got the inhaling right and I know more or less what my quota is to make the most of the experience. I don't always have a happy high, I think it depends on the mood too, but at least it's some form of escape, and the best escape is to just mellow it out, or let the weed take you wherever for a while.

 

[PrettyWhiteFlower]

This is so true ... and now apparently this Government wants to push for a bill that it can be used only for medicinal purposes. Such bs!

I'm in the UK and that's the situation here. Only legal if you go through a private clinic and you have to prove you've tried 2 forms of treatment previously. Its all online and the minimum order for each strain is 10g.

My first prescription was two strains I'm not really keen on and now I'm stuck with loads of it

 

[Pale_Rider]

So glad its legal. What a drag life was before.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I'm in the UK and that's the situation here. Only legal if you go through a private clinic and you have to prove you've tried 2 forms of treatment previously. Its all online and the minimum order for each strain is 10g.

My first prescription was two strains I'm not really keen on and now I'm stuck with loads of it

Oh dear, are you going to try another strain then if it could help? Is it covered by medical insurance? That is quite a bit you have leftover, could you use it in baking maybe? Just thinking of a friend who makes her own brownies to help her sleep.

So glad its legal. What a drag life was before.

Legal without prescription? Which country are you in? I'm in Thailand and hoping it will stay legal as is now.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I'm having a chilled evening, hope you are too, or will be having one later.
Random thought, maybe I'm an alien, why not, and who knows? Nothing is impossible since most of life is a lie, isn't it? Maybe once we see all the lies and fakeness, the randomness and nothingness, we turn into some other being, not meant for this planet. Imagine if the next step would be space travel for those of us not making sense of this life. Catching a space shuttle instead of a bus on the journey far away from this existence.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Too mellow to even have random thoughts. Then saw this pic and started wondering if we could live like this, on a deserted island, with no money issues, living off the land, away from humans but in tune with nature and animals, would we still want to ctb? Then I remembered, such a place doesn't exist, but weed can take me there in my imagination.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Random thought, I wonder if SN could work in a couple of weed brownies. A salty, savoury last snack.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

The unrealness of everything sometimes become double that when high, that it's not even me living in this unreality. And within that unreality, the reality of the path to ctb becomes more real. As if the only reality is I will be leaving this unreality.

Sometimes a bit of reality enters the high and the real reason that caused the dying of the soul comes to mind. And then I remember why I choose to live in an unreality as opposed to the cruel reality and wrongness of it all.

So, the unreality will continue until I guess I cannot fake it anymore, until it's time for the reality of ctb to take over, in peace. And now I'm just chilled. Happy to have weed for the unreality.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Random note, not so random thoughts

I died in November
When the world ended
You said, "don't you ever lose touch with me"
I was still not sure what you meant
Did not understand how you could just go ahead and leave
You love me, I'm sorry I didn't understand sooner
As I'm planning to end all, I'm wondering
What is left to kill, when I'm already dead inside
Maybe you did me a favour when you left a dead me behind
Or should I hang onto the little thread of hope that we have to touch again
While the emptiness of every day grows into more nothingness
There is no meaning to this without you, no reason to stay
I died in November already

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Are we Great Pretenders?
Thought coming to mind, as I pretend to be not suicidal when talking to my person. The one I'm not supposed to have any secrets from. Pretending and then enquiring about cremation services and legal arrangements on the same day. As if everything is okay, nothing out of the ordinary to plan for one's passing. The emptiness inside making us function on autopilot. Just another day before the end.

 

[psp3000]

I can't believe so many people are okay with hurting a non-hostile creature....

 

[countdowntoecstasy]

Every time I get high it just feels like everything is a dream. Which I mean is a feeling I already experience but its more intense.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Every time I get high it just feels like everything is a dream. Which I mean is a feeling I already experience but its more intense.

Same here, exactly the same. Unreality hits me every time. And if I think that unreality may actually be reality, the dream becomes a nightmare. It's hard to steer that feeling to "a good mellow or chill" depending on the intensity, which I think can also sometimes become more intense the more puffs I take. Wishing you happy dreams or chills, while I go smoke for my second high this evening.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

It's always coming back to this, the intense feeling to ctb. Even with a "good day" or two here or there, it comes back to this. Am I giving up? Does the faking become mentally impossible after a while? Is it my mind that is starting to leave me, my soul, leaving before the body? Is it because I'm high that I think like this?

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Don't know how much more I can take. I think weed will be the only thing I will miss, if there has to be anything but total deadness after this hell. If there is any chance of there being any form of life after this, even in the slightest like this, please let us be forever doped.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Just before seeing this, I was sitting on the balcony having a few puffs when I actually saw a monkey walking on the wall of a temple building on top of the hill right across from me. If someone had told me a year ago that this would be me today ...

 

[FadingSnowFake]

How is it that I feel we are more normal here than the ones out there? Why is it that when I'm high I see more clearly how sick the world is? Having to live in this unreal reality is punishment, we can see and feel the torture while the ones out there cannot and will never understand what it's like because their eyes have not been opened to the cruelty of the nightmare called life.

 

[Olivie_420]

Smoking some of my delivery while i type this, but honestly id i were apartment hunting, id look for a good roof or balcony to smoke on too LMFAOO

I get a lot of insight on myself when i smoke imo, especially with my boyfriend. I smoke w him daily, and the most. I get those flashes of feeling dead inside, but that honestly only depends on my current mood from before i smoke. I realized my emotions, already amplified bc my autism, either amplifies more when i smoke and makes me yap a lot, or i just chill in my own lil world quietly with my roblox.

And SOOOO much munchies!!! I always make sure to have one of the following of each if i js want a snackie snack: Something sweet, something spicy, or something frozen. My fav treats a slushy!!
And obviously who doesnt crave a pizza or some fast food when your high lol. I have "emergency munchie money" on standby for it lol

I understand the paranoia when getting high and its the worst. I personally have never been, but ive been in a sesh with someone who smoked her first real weed EVER, a splif. It was fat af and we told her to take 2 hits, bc she was only off carts and gummies at the time. She took extra hits behind our backs, and i was put to the task to take her home bc she lived close and her mom called a few times. She, a sophomore and I, a senior. I naturally felt like i had to, especially since she was a younger and i didnt know at first how bad it was... But we walk a few blocks, and honestly i think shes overreacting but a few times she dramatically drops to the ground, a few "im sooo high", and then a few minutes later we're sitting in a skate park and im tryna convince her to go home bc its late. Then it all goes from "no! i cant go home like this!"/"im sooo highh!" to "Did you and M (my friend who rolled us up) just LACE me?!" and a bunch of yelling about calling the cops. I tried to reason with her but for some reason, they put the guy with autism, who gets overstimulated easily to take a screaming, greening out teenager home who wont even comply. It was a whole mess, id never wanna be that paranoid when high. I tried the best i could but it was scary for us both, but that day rlly changed her

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Smoking some of my delivery while i type this, but honestly id i were apartment hunting, id look for a good roof or balcony to smoke on too LMFAOO

I get a lot of insight on myself when i smoke imo, especially with my boyfriend. I smoke w him daily, and the most. I get those flashes of feeling dead inside, but that honestly only depends on my current mood from before i smoke. I realized my emotions, already amplified bc my autism, either amplifies more when i smoke and makes me yap a lot, or i just chill in my own lil world quietly with my roblox.

And SOOOO much munchies!!! I always make sure to have one of the following of each if i js want a snackie snack: Something sweet, something spicy, or something frozen. My fav treats a slushy!!
And obviously who doesnt crave a pizza or some fast food when your high lol. I have "emergency munchie money" on standby for it lol

I understand the paranoia when getting high and its the worst. I personally have never been, but ive been in a sesh with someone who smoked her first real weed EVER, a splif. It was fat af and we told her to take 2 hits, bc she was only off carts and gummies at the time. She took extra hits behind our backs, and i was put to the task to take her home bc she lived close and her mom called a few times. She, a sophomore and I, a senior. I naturally felt like i had to, especially since she was a younger and i didnt know at first how bad it was... But we walk a few blocks, and honestly i think shes overreacting but a few times she dramatically drops to the ground, a few "im sooo high", and then a few minutes later we're sitting in a skate park and im tryna convince her to go home bc its late. Then it all goes from "no! i cant go home like this!"/"im sooo highh!" to "Did you and M (my friend who rolled us up) just LACE me?!" and a bunch of yelling about calling the cops. I tried to reason with her but for some reason, they put the guy with autism, who gets overstimulated easily to take a screaming, greening out teenager home who wont even comply. It was a whole mess, id never wanna be that paranoid when high. I tried the best i could but it was scary for us both, but that day rlly changed her

Hey, hope you had a chilled time! Yes, a balcony has advantages, many moon views as in pic. I miss my partner, it's true what you say about insights. I had many smoking with mine too, it's like our insights flowed and grew together as we reached new levels of being "insightful" while finding more insights. (I'm a bit high now, so I hope it makes sense). I also agree that emotions amplify, for me I think because I associate being high with my partner, the emptiness amplifies when he's not here.

Anyways, I still enjoy smoking ... and the munchies! I've managed to ban myself from crisps, and I buy only food for the day otherwise I will eat tomorrow's food too. I'm munching on edamame beans and coffee coated peanuts as we speak. I also like pumpkin and sunflower seeds, fresh fruits like guava, mango and papaya, and an ice cream every other day.

What happened to your friend was scary but also her fault cause she smoked behind your backs. I can imagine how scary it was for you too and I hope she learned from that. I think I've gotten to know my comfort zone now, and if I'm a little out of it, I just need to remind myself that it's only weed and to go with the flow rather than get too emotional.

I wish you a chilled evening, with happy insights and yummy munchies.