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- 201
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CGN83
Member
- Jan 1, 2026
- 52
In my case, I took an OD of a substance I won't name but it was a strong prescription medication which I had stockpiled. I knew I wanted to take the overdose and I didn't need to think twice. Around 15 minutes after ingestion my heart started to race and I was in and out of consciousness up by a quiet walkway where there were very few people around.
Despite knowing I didn't want to live, in the moment it's also quite terrifying knowing or at least in my case, thinking, I was about to die.
A passer by found me and called for an ambulance and I was taken to the hospital. I could not walk and I couldn't speak as the medication shut down my central nervous system. I blacked out in the ambulance and woke up in a recovery ward the following morning. A psychiatrist assessed me and told me to go home. I don't regret doing it, but each time I was made to feel like an idiot by mental health professionals.
I've tried this method three times in total, taking higher doses each time, but always had the same result so I gave up trying that way.
madameviolette
Another Big Pharma victim
- Oct 9, 2025
- 569
behindtheveil
Member
- Oct 12, 2025
- 316
It was so hard to try the first time, it took nearly four hours sitting in that chair trying to gain strength to pull the exit bag over my face and when I finally did it, even after 12 seconds nothing happened. I removed it and just been hoping to try again. Why am I not able to? I mean it's right there in my bedroom staring at me. How you do it the second and praying to be the final time?
OzymandiAsh
aNoMaLy
- Nov 6, 2025
- 522
Unlucky777
Arcanist
- Dec 10, 2025
- 408
I was angry when I woke up, felt horrible for failure. My only regret is I didn't take enough for it to be lethal. It was a shot in the dark. Next attempt will have to be more calculatedLast edited:
EmptyBottle
2036-01-10T08
- Apr 10, 2025
- 2,244
Some disappointment that the method didn't work (and was taking longer than expected), and realisation that all the steps were likely needed.
Lost Impact
A Singular Atonement
- Oct 31, 2023
- 281
no regrets, I just felt stupid afterwards. i never regretted my attempts, I just felt embarrassed for failing.
LunarLynx
Just a lost spirit searching freedom
- Dec 18, 2023
- 119
It felt so good. Not to fail but the sensation. I really seek for high dose of risk, stress of dying and adrenaline. (Context : drove 90km/h into a cliff and made a few (between 5 and 8) roll)
And It was the closest I was to die, I was upside down in the car and started laughing, I couldn't stop for at least 10 minutes.
Easily the best 10 minutes of my life
thefarter
i don’t smoke
- Dec 10, 2025
- 145
when i woke up in hospital i was like oh crap im alive. and i was like oh no my family must know now. and i was confused a bit. and my throat hurt because of the tube shoved down it. i regretted not drinking more sodium nitrite
Jisatsu
黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
- Jan 5, 2025
- 2,012
When I attempt I don't think I just do , I dont hold regret for my attempts I only regret that I survived them.I tried to drown myself in a river at age 16. I got pulled under water by the current, hit a stone under water and suddenly it was as if somebody had flipped a switch in my brain and I didn't want to die anymore. I managed to swim and get out of the river by myself. Initially, I was relieved that I survived, but now I wish I had succeeded, as it is now many years later and I still want to ctb but it has become harder to do.
Arvayn
Face the end.
- Nov 11, 2025
- 338
I starved myself until I went into shock of various kinds and my body started to fail. I lived alone at the time, so nobody would save me. I woke up in a puddle of my own sweat and piss and decided to say goodbyes while I still had that window of consciousness; my partner convinced me to call an ambulance, appealing to the emotion I felt for them. So, I did...
I did not feel any regret over the attempt, though I did not feel regret over failing, either. My thoughts on it were just... 'Whatever'. It came out of existential depression.
thefarter
i don’t smoke
- Dec 10, 2025
- 145
ummmm i think i mixed like 1 teaspoon with 400ml of water? and i was just drinking it. probably had like 200ml of the mixture
InevitableDeath
Already Dead
- Jan 4, 2026
- 291
Ok, it looks like that would work if you only weighed about 20 lbs. But I'm sure it's not easy to get down.
jamesies
coydog
- Apr 8, 2025
- 24
i felt nothing. i had a horrible stressful night, laid down to sleep for work and saw the bottle on my nightstand. i opened it and poured pills into my mouth, spat them out, then tried again and actually swallowed, and i felt nothing. i legitimately dont think i had a thought at all. i think after i swallowed i had an "theres no going back now" kinda thought and then i went to sleep peacefully
Cepheuss
Student
- Apr 17, 2023
- 118
My first attempt i think i was 13? Tried to od with a bunch of random shit obviously knew nothing about it and woke up in my sick and went to school. Definitely messed with me for a while i don't remember much about regret i just remember being in school crying just wishing it had worked
Unlucky777
Arcanist
- Dec 10, 2025
- 408
my only regret is not buying 25 or more Visine bottles my last attempt. not sure if that would have done the trick but i must finish what I started. The job is still incomplete...
have you tried more bottles? I did 10 at once....I must too finish what I started. I can buy 20 and dose 2 every 2 hours in hopes it works, but why did you say 25? how many darn bottles do we need!
Death and wanting it to end and I didn't regret much as I got off scot free.
DashofPepper
Member
- Aug 4, 2025
- 17
i felt some anticipation beforehand but mainly peace as i went unconscious, afterwards i was just incredibly angry at myself that it hadnt worked so i cut myself a bunch. i only regret the pain i inflicted on my gf by attempting.
gardenoflonely
<3
- Apr 29, 2026
- 64
Honestly I regret not succeeding when I was younger, or at least not being aware of sites and resources that could lead me away from non-methods.
In the moment I didn't really feel anything, just adrenaline and another feeling I still haven't been able to name. It's like when you're a little kid and you're falling asleep in the back seat of the car, knowing that you're safe because you're going home.
StoneCactus
Member
- Mar 15, 2026
- 83
I drank most of a fifth of Jack Daniel's and ate a lot of kratom gummies. I went to sleep convinced I wasn't going to wake up. When I did I was extremely frustrated and depressed. I couldn't stop vomiting no matter what I drank so I went to urgent care who sent me to the ER. I told them I just wanted to get drunk and high and denied any desire to harm myself so they sent me back home.
interna
Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
- Dec 1, 2025
- 157
i failed 2:
back in in 2019, i overdosed. i felt a lot of physical pain. i remember regretting not writing a note, but i was mostly impatient for it to end. no aftereffects
this january, i tried hanging myself. i managed to pass out. i felt relieved to be dying, although it was uncomfortable at first. my anchor point broke and i woke up to a lot of physical pain which dragged on for weeks, so i immediately regretted failing. to this day i get really intense migraines
DoomsdayCTB
Member
- Apr 24, 2026
- 35
lmao all times 'this is taking a really long time and my heart's not in it' (1 car x garage attempt, 1 failed pill x alcohol, 1 car by heat exhaustion)I attempted suicide using a not very well-constructed exit bag and helium tank. The only regret I have is not using a better made exit bag and nitrogen instead.Similar threads
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