darkenmydoorstep
Not Waving But Browned Off….
- Sep 27, 2023
- 505
Do you ever feel like people just want to keep you alive for their own selfish reasons?
Unconnected with your personal happiness?
I know my son's dad wants me kept alive so he doesn't have to parent alone. So he can continue to get blitzed when he feels like it and not have to do the stuff he hates or can't do, like the bills and banking.
My son would probably want me kept alive so I can look after him, set his clothes out, take him to fun places. Give him stuff.
My mum just wouldn't want the suicide child story. Would piss on any other stories she ever told about me, surviving, doing alright, living in a nice town etc
And the man I love would probably like to keep me alive because he likes things I write as well as being able to torment me. Once I die the tables flip, I torment him.
And so they all have their reasons to try and keep me alive. Not one of them because I, ME enjoy life. And it's probably the same for most of you. Other people want you alive because you serve a function to them. That is all.
Unconnected with your personal happiness?
I know my son's dad wants me kept alive so he doesn't have to parent alone. So he can continue to get blitzed when he feels like it and not have to do the stuff he hates or can't do, like the bills and banking.
My son would probably want me kept alive so I can look after him, set his clothes out, take him to fun places. Give him stuff.
My mum just wouldn't want the suicide child story. Would piss on any other stories she ever told about me, surviving, doing alright, living in a nice town etc
And the man I love would probably like to keep me alive because he likes things I write as well as being able to torment me. Once I die the tables flip, I torment him.
And so they all have their reasons to try and keep me alive. Not one of them because I, ME enjoy life. And it's probably the same for most of you. Other people want you alive because you serve a function to them. That is all.