for the people who are almost certain they are going to die by suicide, how do you know?

[singingcrow]

for me

it's because the thought of potentially living for another 60 years makes me start to feel queasy. if i've been trying to fix myself since the age of 13 and now i'm 26 and still not better

how am I ever meant to be?

 

[itsgone2]

I have no desire to live another day let alone decades.
I didn't choose mental illness. But I didn't manage it properly either. It's time to go. I don't know why i haven't yet.
I'm losing my job. My last source of strength. It's over for me. You need to invest time into family, faith, community. I didn't.
I messed up my life. It's just time to go now

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think- when dread of the present and dread of the future is so intense and when there is no avoiding the things you dread- suicide seems like the ideal way out.

While it can't be a certainty for me until I actually do it and succeed- I can't be sure I will overcome SI, in truth- it's more a hope for me that I suicide soon. Because I can't stand the thought of having to get through much more of this life. Additionally- to do it as I grow older.

 

[Forveleth]

I am tired of living. I do not enjoy the idea of existing another several decades. The only solution to this is to kill myself.

 

[thelostautistic]

It's something I've known for a long time. I genuinely can't see myself living a long life

 

[chapitaupe]

For many years I just couldn't imagine a future that is suitable for me, where I'd be finally comfortable and happy living. Since then I can't get the absolute certainty that I will die sooner or later out of my head. At first I really wished I wouldn't have to do anything, that an accident or a sickness would just take me. But I've realized that nothing or no one will do it for me, so I have to take the responsibility of it. Still building up the courage to do it tho

 

[burninghill]

I've been suicidal since I was 13/14 so I think it's just sort of inevitable. I have this idea in my head that I'm SUPPOSED to die by suicide and honestly no part of me is resisting it, so I have no reason to believe otherwise.

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

When you can't imagine yourself in a stress free condition at least a single day and are experiencing physical pain. You know there is no hope left

 

[Yakui]

since i was thirteen i have told myself "ill kill myself before i turn thirty". i have not wavered from this.
i simply cannot see any other way to go out. if i dont suddenly develop some disease or die in some accident, thats how im gonna go out. im certainly not gonna grow old and grey. ive been depressed since childhood, for as long as i can remember. i dont want to take several more decades of this shit.

 

[thefirstluminary]

since i was thirteen i have told myself "ill kill myself before i turn thirty". i have not wavered from this.
i simply cannot see any other way to go out. if i dont suddenly develop some disease or die in some accident, thats how im gonna go out. im certainly not gonna grow old and grey. ive been depressed since childhood, for as long as i can remember. i dont want to take several more decades of this shit.
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being 30 is not old though
it's so over

 

[ritahaddad]

for me

it's because the thought of potentially living for another 60 years makes me start to feel queasy. if i've been trying to fix myself since the age of 13 and now i'm 26 and still not better

how am I ever meant to be?

i am certain because eventually i stopped being able to imagine myself in the future, i dont have a purpose or goal or meaning or ambitions i dont want to marry i dont want kids i dont have an interest in a certain kind of job so ya im certain