It is one of my reason.
I had undiagnosed ADHD for years, and it ruined my life. My school's grades are below averages, i wasted soo many opportunities, I can't finish college and eventually quit it. And when I finally got diagnosed, I get no support from my family or friends, no one wanted to help or understand me except meds, doctor and therapist. I've been fighting it alone for years and I don't think I can hold it anymore.
On top of that with several other reasons, it's enough for me to plan ctb. For one moment though, I thought it's just my impulsivity from adhd. But I don't think it is- because my Ideation have been running longer than it should be, and I've been committed to it for months now.
