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Final Escape
I’ve been here too long
- Jul 8, 2018
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That's gotta be brutal, I can hardly go one day. I'm always amazed when other people go for weeks.I haven't showered in 3weeks.
That's a record for Me.
That's gotta be brutal, I can hardly go one day. I'm always amazed when other people go for weeks.I haven't showered in 3weeks.
That's a record for Me.
That's sounds terrible, I can relate with difficulty leaving house because anxiety.I feel Disgusting Mentally.
So it is impossible for Me to care what I look like Physically, Anxiety is so bad I can't leave My house.
I want to Shower but I can't find any Motivation to Do so.
I used to shower daily, and used to stink a few hours or even directly after showering. Now however I go like 7-12 days or even more without showering. I don't stink the same way though, I get an odor that slowly builds up over the days. I guess I used to stink before because of nervous sweating. Idk.That's gotta be brutal, I can hardly go one day. I'm always amazed when other people go for weeks.
I haven't showered in 3weeks
I have laid in bed for 7 or 8 days only to get up to use the restroom and grab food.My maximum is 3 days in a row so far. Just sleeping, drinking water occasionally, going to the toilet once or twice a day. No eating or taking a shower.
But my stomach will start to hurt like hell due to chronic inflammation so I'll need to get up and eat something. Otherwise I could stay longer. :/
I have laid in bed for 7 or 8 days only to get up to use the restroom and grab food.
I have laid in bed for 7 or 8 days only to get up to use the restroom and grab food.
Yea some days I dont even shower or leave the apartment.I'm now more like this pattern.
When I was operating My business I showered every Morning.I can't really stay in bed for long periods but if I had absolutely nothing I had to do I probably could.
When I was operating My business I showered every Morning.
Anyways.
After almost Four Weeks, I finally showered.
I live with my family, and they do all they can to make me be outside of bed. I can go several hours with them but if not i don't know, maybe i could go a couple of days
My dad works full time and my grandma has difficulty with walking so basically no one would come and get me out of bed. I'm sure I'll continue this as long as I can go...
I'm an unemployable loser :(
That makes two of us. My grades are below the point needed to sit in the interviews for major employers, and also below the point needed for a Masters in a good university. However, they're still above average, so I'm stuck in an uncomfortable spot of mediocrity in a good university where everyone puts in crazy amounts of work. I'm basically fucked after I graduate. I wish I could go back to blindly putting in effort like I used to in school.
F**k. I cried. Hard.
That is EXACTLY my story though I have graduated two years ago. I don't know what to say.....
Well, I don't think you need to say anything.
I'm in the place where I am because I don't have the energy to keep putting in effort and feel nothing as a result. Even dissatisfaction would be good compared to this... indifference (hell, even that's way too strong a word). And I don't want to surrender myself to the motions of life for a few fleeting seconds of happiness that might come rolling around. I am sick and tired of being empty. I keep stuffing myself with food that tastes good for a few seconds to not remain curled up and failing to cry, but that gets expensive pretty quickly.
I could see so much of myself in you... *Hugs*
The only thing is I don't eat :(
Well, let me rephrase that. I have 11 small meals in the span of 4 hours each day, and I spend the rest of the day without food. That's probably the reason I don't look fat yet.
God, I sound even more like an annoying little shit that I am. Maybe that's why I keep eating the way I do.
I'm just curious about what makes you have meals in the certain period of time?
Self hatred and a desire to feel slightly better about myself.
I want to be able to like life, and not feel distanced from it. The only things that work are chewing on random bits of fast food and watching a critically acclaimed TV show or movie to make me feel like I'm understanding 'art', whatever that means.