Food is my only source of enjoyment.

[ForeverSubhuman]

Genuinely nothing else brings me happiness at this point. I'm also scared of being fat because my face will look even worse and I wouldn't have a jawline. I hate the contradiction between my 2 desires of being lean and enjoying food (which is my last cope atp). I've thought about giving in and going full my 600 lb life mode. I've also thought about doing calorie challenges, like 10000 calories a day, which I may do for my birthday in a month and a half.

 

[whitetaildeer]

Me too. I'm bulimic, despite my best attempts to recover. I love planning full days around binges. My day, week, or even month will suck completely, but then I'm put in front of a bunch of carbs and sweets, and it's like nothing that's happened even matters anymore. I think my craziest binge session in a day was 40,000 calories, 4 years back. The sensory overload from food alone is indescribably comforting.

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

Me too. I'm bulimic, despite my best attempts to recover. I love planning full days around binges. My day, week, or even month will suck completely, but then I'm put in front of a bunch of carbs and sweets, and it's like nothing that's happened even matters anymore. I think my craziest binge session in a day was 40,000 calories, 4 years back. The sensory overload from food alone is indescribably comforting.

Yeah. Nothing else gives the same dopamaine rush. It's completely unique.

 

[LastNite]

Yummers

 

[SMeOand]

Same its either that or LDARing, the only way I can feel any happiness is if im eating or im doing escapism (Video games ect) even all of that is beginning to be boring it seems like I will have to go for more extreme options in the near future

 

[Pluto]

 

[coolcow1289]

I used to be this way. I'd eat a whole large pizza in bed after a bad day. But then I got sick with a GI disease. After a period of aggressive fasting. Now I eat like a bird and am underweight. Food makes me sick no matter what I eat. Joy isn't allowed.