Flip flop of feelings when thinking of CTB

[Tyra]

Does anyone else constantly flip flop between these feelings when thinking of CTB:
-euphoria
-fear
-guilt

 

[baeblade]

Yeah, me too. Sometimes thinking about it makes me smile, other times I feel pathetic. I put the noose around my neck and my mind tells me that something might happen in the future that will completely change my life. But then I look at what my life is actually like and go back to planning. I understand. Do you fear the death itself? Or something else?

 

[Tyra]

Yeah, me too. Sometimes thinking about it makes me smile, other times I feel pathetic. I put the noose around my neck and my mind tells me that something might happen in the future that will completely change my life. But then I look at what my life is actually like and go back to planning. I understand. Do you fear the death itself? Or something else?

I fear the pain. Sometimes I'm afraid of what comes after… but not so much anymore as I realized it's inevitable and out of my control.

 

[Disabledfromjump7]

Listen up yall. I'm miserable and need to go but I'm scared of failing again.

 

[baeblade]

I fear the pain. Sometimes I'm afraid of what comes after… but not so much anymore as I realized it's inevitable and out of my control.

I mean you can always turn to substances for the pain. Maybe even just alcohol depending on your method?

 

[Tyra]

I mean you can always turn to substances for the pain. Maybe even just alcohol depending on your method?

It's SN.

 

[baeblade]

Ah, I'm not knowledgeable on that. Wish you luck in finding peace anyway.

 

[laceydreams]

Yeah, mainly fear and euphoria.

 

[100memoryleaks]

yes, all the time