
BitterlyAlive
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- Apr 8, 2020
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It was earlier this year. I've definitely considered suicide before and have had ideas for methods, but generally had something I could do instead (changing jobs, majors, getting more college in). Things had been building and building for a while and one night it's like I was in a trance. I was so tired and fed up. Feeling more apathetic and impulsive due to meds. I saw a chance to die and I started taking it, then realized at the last second that it wasn't how I wanted to die and aborted the attempt right before I hurt myself. But I was completely calm and ready to die.