Finding a partner

[Funeralprincess]

So I had built a huge bond with a person I thought was going to CTB with me as we both have the same method and we bonded for months making concrete plans, only for her to basically abandon me. Lol I get abandoned by lovers, friends, and now death partners. I wanted to go with someone, and looked forward to going with her because of how close we had become but she just bailed out. I'm stuck because I'd still like a. Partner to go with who isn't going to pussy out, call cops, or just be entirely unsure. I'm fine waiting a few months if need be because I believe N is good for a while if stored right, but I hate that we called and texted everyday and built a bond only for her to leave. It is quite hurtful I must say so I'm hoping another partner can come along

 

[I need peace]

Lol I get abandoned by lovers, friends, and now death partners

I totally understand that, I've talked to some people but I can't even connect with someone enough to partner for ctb
I'm probably gonna go just as alone as I've always been, and it sucks

 

[Funeralprincess]

I totally understand that, I've talked to some people but I can't even connect with someone enough to partner for ctb
I'm probably gonna go just as alone as I've always been, and it sucks

I'm really sorry to hear that. It's very frustrating and disheartening to be honest

 

[Mia Wallace]

I'm sorry to hear that. I do wish your partner to find a fulfilling life since having a change of heart. That's why I put a partner out of the equation, not reliable. I will do it on my own terms

 

[locked*n*loaded]

@funeralprincess

I think the best way to look at losing this partner, is that you probably dodged a bullet with them. For all the potential pitfalls you mention in your post that could come from a partner. Better to find out now.

 

[Foresight]

This is why partnering in this is messy af because your death will always be yours alone. Your body, your life left behind, your decision, your day. I don't get the appeal but to each their own. Death is a solitary experience in the end.

 

[TheDoomedDoomer]

So I had built a huge bond with a person I thought was going to CTB with me as we both have the same method and we bonded for months making concrete plans, only for her to basically abandon me. Lol I get abandoned by lovers, friends, and now death partners. I wanted to go with someone, and looked forward to going with her because of how close we had become but she just bailed out. I'm stuck because I'd still like a. Partner to go with who isn't going to pussy out, call cops, or just be entirely unsure. I'm fine waiting a few months if need be because I believe N is good for a while if stored right, but I hate that we called and texted everyday and built a bond only for her to leave. It is quite hurtful I must say so I'm hoping another partner can come along

I had the same issue with a potential partner as well. They basically told me they changed their mind which I respect but at the same time I got to know them for 2 months for basically nothing.

This is why partnering in this is messy af because your death will always be yours alone. Your body, your life left behind, your decision, your day. I don't get the appeal but to each their own. Death is a solitary experience in the end.

I feel like the appeal in having a partner is not being alone during your last moments. I definitely see how it could go wrong in many ways but if you've got a pretty much full proof method then I don't see it being that big of a risk. Plus they can talk each other through it leading up to the act cause I know when I last had a major attempt I wasn't thinking clearly and was being very implusive and that's why I messed up.

 

[Someone123]

This is very common with partners situations- most people postpone ctb multiple times before going through with it, or in some cases recovering, and no one should feel pre3ssure to go if they aren't ready- this goes with the tierritoy if seeking a partner, we always need to respect other people's choices and no try to push them in any way to do something taht they don't want to do.

 

[Priestess]

This has happened to me several times already. People making plans and then not following through. If you're interested, PM me. There seems to be something wrong with my account right now where I can't PM people.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I can understand your disappointment. It must be a whole rollercoaster of emotions. It's such a big decision though I guess. It's kind of hard to be 100% sure.

I'm so glad I found this place though. Personally, if I ever manage to find the guts to go through with it, I wouldn't really want someone with me. Having said that, reading some of the goodbye threads, sometimes live, I have felt a massive sense of compassion and solidarity. If I do do it one day, I would love to start a goodbye thread to feel slightly less alone.

I hope you are able to find a new partner and wish you well.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life is unpredictable and uncertain. People are disappointing and unreliable and that's simply just the way that things are. It's always better to die alone in my opinion, but the way that you feel is understandable. Nobody should have to die alone if that is what they want.

 

[Cantbereal]

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