Finally have my N

[pento]

My username is pento for a reason, I knew that pentobarbital (N) is the way I wanted to go no matter how difficult it was to obtain it. I was ready to fly to Mexico and fucking sail back if I needed to.

There's nothing as calming and satisfying as having N ready for when I need it. For when I'm ready to check out. I didn't chose to be born to this bitch of an earth, but I will choose how and when I leave it.

My understanding is that liquid pentobarbital's shelf life is 20 years. I ordered SN as well since it has an infinite shelf life, just as a backup in case access becomes a serious problem over the coming decades (I can only imagine it will).

Funny enough, I accidentally ordered sodium nitrate (not nitrite) in one of the several orders I made from different sources (since some are out of stock/sketchy). I think it's possible to make sodium nitrite from sodium nitrate, I just have no idea how to at the moment. I won't need to personally but it may become a need in the future for others as SN sources become more and more scarce.

 

[supermario]

Congrats, I envy you for having N. I have sn but it's a distant second choice for me.

 

[GoingMyOwnWay]

My username is pento for a reason, I knew that pentobarbital (N) is the way I wanted to go no matter how difficult it was to obtain it. I was ready to fly to Mexico and fucking sail back if I needed to.

There's nothing as calming and satisfying as having N ready for when I need it. For when I'm ready to check out. I didn't chose to be born to this bitch of an earth, but I will choose how and when I leave it.

My understanding is that liquid pentobarbital's shelf life is 20 years. I ordered SN as well since it has an infinite shelf life, just as a backup in case access becomes a serious problem over the coming decades (I can only imagine it will).

Funny enough, I accidentally ordered sodium nitrate (not nitrite) in one of the several orders I made from different sources (since some are out of stock/sketchy). I think it's possible to make sodium nitrite from sodium nitrate, I just have no idea how to at the moment. I won't need to personally but it may become a need in the future for others as SN sources become more and more scarce.

Can I send you a DM? I would like to see some photos of the bottles if that is ok. I am about to order mine, but I want to see what the product looks like.

 

[bed]

Can I send you a DM? I would like to see some photos of the bottles if that is ok. I am about to order mine, but I want to see what the product looks like.

They look like vet N bottles which you can see in the PPeH or if you google it.

Generally advised not to send pictures to other people on here.

 

[Death is beautiful]

I'm happy for you. now you have the opportunity to leave this world peacefully when you see fit

 

[pento]

I'm happy for you. now you have the opportunity to leave this world peacefully when you see fit

Thanks, and yeah I don't plan on using it any time soon. If anything, having it brings me more peace and satisfaction, and far less desperation and haste.

I wish that everyone could have this feeling. It isn't sane or moral how we force people to live in a society that also won't meaningfully help them otherwise.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best. When the time comes to leave I hope you find what you are looking for. Of course we all deserve an option of a peaceful exit, it is cruel how the society expects us to suffer for decades. Nobody should have to resort to painful methods that could fail. I understand why you would feel relieved.

 

[sfabians]

I hope that gives you peace and comfort. As for me, I'm not sure if one bottle of N is really enough.
I weigh 210 lbs (95 kg). I'm anxious about this. I want to get it right.
Hopefully someone clarifies. Thanks.

 

[Eddypaddy]

My username is pento for a reason, I knew that pentobarbital (N) is the way I wanted to go no matter how difficult it was to obtain it. I was ready to fly to Mexico and fucking sail back if I needed to.

There's nothing as calming and satisfying as having N ready for when I need it. For when I'm ready to check out. I didn't chose to be born to this bitch of an earth, but I will choose how and when I leave it.

My understanding is that liquid pentobarbital's shelf life is 20 years. I ordered SN as well since it has an infinite shelf life, just as a backup in case access becomes a serious problem over the coming decades (I can only imagine it will).

Funny enough, I accidentally ordered sodium nitrate (not nitrite) in one of the several orders I made from different sources (since some are out of stock/sketchy). I think it's possible to make sodium nitrite from sodium nitrate, I just have no idea how to at the moment. I won't need to personally but it may become a need in the future for others as SN sources become more and more scarce.

you got your N by D right? in which country do you life? were you not afraid of the customs taking your N? i live in germany and i fear that this will happen to me

 

[Snake of Eden]

Congrats. You deserve it

 

[Chinaski]

Thanks, and yeah I don't plan on using it any time soon. If anything, having it brings me more peace and satisfaction, and far less desperation and haste.

I wish that everyone could have this feeling. It isn't sane or moral how we force people to live in a society that also won't meaningfully help them otherwise.

Totally get that feeling, is such a relief to know you can exit, on your own terms and in relative peace, as and when you want.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I hope that gives you peace and comfort. As for me, I'm not sure if one bottle of N is really enough.
I weigh 210 lbs (95 kg). I'm anxious about this. I want to get it right.
Hopefully someone clarifies. Thanks.

It's probably best to use two with your weight

 

[pento]

you got your N by D right? in which country do you life? were you not afraid of the customs taking your N? i live in germany and i fear that this will happen to me

Yes. U.S. No I wasn't afraid, as there aren't many reports of customs taking it since he uses discreet packaging. Can't speak about other countries though.

I hope that gives you peace and comfort. As for me, I'm not sure if one bottle of N is really enough.
I weigh 210 lbs (95 kg). I'm anxious about this. I want to get it right.
Hopefully someone clarifies. Thanks.

I weigh around the same. Trust me, one bottle is enough. They are far bigger than I expected them to be.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Yes. U.S. No I wasn't afraid, as there aren't many reports of customs taking it since he uses discreet packaging. Can't speak about other countries though.

I weigh around the same. Trust me, one bottle is enough. They are far bigger than I expected them to be.

I weigh much less and I'm using two. It's not about the size of the bottle, it's about how much N is in it

 

[sfabians]

I weigh around the same. Trust me, one bottle is enough. They are far bigger than I expected them to be.

Thank you. I was afraid to try 100ml and later wake up with something like a damaged brain.

I hope that gives you peace and comfort. As for me, I'm not sure if one bottle of N is really enough.
I weigh 210 lbs (95 kg). I'm anxious about this. I want to get it right.
Hopefully someone clarifies. Thanks.

 

[intr0verse]

One bottle has little over 6g of N. While most likely 6g are lethal for most people, that could be true if you're in an environment totally under your control which isn't the case for any (or most) of us here. Even if you're living alone, the universe might set up things in such a way that your neighbour may run out of...nembutal (or salt while you're unconscious and knocks your door.
If you can afford it, go for 2 bottles (12g), for both speed and reliability.

 

[pento]

One bottle has little over 6g of N. While most likely 6g are lethal for most people, that could be true if you're in an environment totally under your control which isn't the case for any (or most) of us here. Even if you're living alone, the universe might set up things in such a way that your neighbour may run out of...nembutal (or salt while you're unconscious and knocks your door.
If you can afford it, go for 2 bottles (12g), for both speed and reliability.

It never ceases to amaze me how so many people, in a world unimaginably large, insist on catching the bus in the worst locations, contingent on other people's schedules. Why do people insist on doing it when their parents/partner/brother/whatever isn't home, or sleeping, as if that's reliable? In the longest cases, N takes some 24 hours to kill due to a (relatively rare) extended coma.

Why does no one ever think "Hmm maybe I should do it in the middle of fucking nowhere", like anywhere in green on this map where zero humans live?

Doing it in a hotel is at least better than doing it at home, but even still there's tons of cases where people have been found and taken to the hospital (particularly for SN).

But are there any cases of people going out to the middle of fucking Wyoming and failing to CTB with N or SN? I don't think so.

Maybe it's because many of these people haven't been homeless or forced to think of the relative spatial density of the population on the planet but fuck me.

In any case, one bottle of that poison is enough. It has a ghastly enough taste as it is. A second bottle would simply risk vomiting.

 

[Snake of Eden]

It never ceases to amaze me how so many people, in a world unimaginably large, insist on catching the bus in the worst locations, contingent on other people's schedules. Why do people insist on doing it when their parents/partner/brother/whatever isn't home, or sleeping, as if that's reliable? In the longest cases, N takes some 24 hours to kill due to a (relatively rare) extended coma.

Why does no one ever think "Hmm maybe I should do it in the middle of fucking nowhere", like anywhere in green on this map where zero humans live?

Doing it in a hotel is at least better than doing it at home, but even still there's tons of cases where people have been found and taken to the hospital (particularly for SN).

But are there any cases of people going out to the middle of fucking Wyoming and failing to CTB with N or SN? I don't think so.

Maybe it's because many of these people haven't been homeless or forced to think of the relative spatial density of the population on the planet but fuck me.

In any case, one bottle of that poison is enough. It has a ghastly enough taste as it is. A second bottle would simply risk vomiting.

I care what happens to my body after. I dont want it to rot somewhere. It is important for me to have a decent burial

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Thank you. I was afraid to try 100ml and later wake up with something like a damaged brain.

N is neuro protective. There was a case where a guy used 13g of N and survived with no brain damage. Bunch of other cases as well

Survival after fatal pentobarbital ingestion

www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov

@pento I think most of us want to eventually be found by family, just not immediately so it doesn't traumatize them. It also isn't practical to buy N, and then have to fly or drive all the way to middle of nowhere in Wyoming. There's always an off chance some random stranger ends up finding you and calling for help too

 

[boc]

Totally agree with the sentiment that having N improves quality of life. Less pressure on having to finish things or get out, because your ticket is always valid tomorrow.

My recommendation to anyone on here is to get your bus ticket ready and then be in control. It is truly a blessing to have. Congrats man on the N. You deserve it.

 

[lola.morgan]

hi there, i'm new here. i want to die but i'm not sure what to use and where to get it from.. can someone help me? thanks
where did u get N? could you help me get it please?

 

[pento]

I care what happens to my body after. I dont want it to rot somewhere. It is important for me to have a decent burial

You could send a future timed message with the location of your body.

 

[Snake of Eden]

You could send a future timed message with the location of your body.

Do you know of good service

 

[boc]

Do you know of good service

Gmail can do delayed emails. That's my plan.

 

[pento]

Probably a good way to avoid your family/people you care about seeing your body, since law enforcement would likely be the ones to deal with it.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

It never ceases to amaze me how so many people, in a world unimaginably large, insist on catching the bus in the worst locations, contingent on other people's schedules. Why do people insist on doing it when their parents/partner/brother/whatever isn't home, or sleeping, as if that's reliable? In the longest cases, N takes some 24 hours to kill due to a (relatively rare) extended coma.

Why does no one ever think "Hmm maybe I should do it in the middle of fucking nowhere", like anywhere in green on this map where zero humans live?

Doing it in a hotel is at least better than doing it at home, but even still there's tons of cases where people have been found and taken to the hospital (particularly for SN).

But are there any cases of people going out to the middle of fucking Wyoming and failing to CTB with N or SN? I don't think so.

Maybe it's because many of these people haven't been homeless or forced to think of the relative spatial density of the population on the planet but fuck me.

In any case, one bottle of that poison is enough. It has a ghastly enough taste as it is. A second bottle would simply risk vomiting.

So where are you going to do this? At home? In a hotel? The wilderness?
Do you mind me asking how much you paid for your N? Sounds like the prices are skyrocketing

 

[Lost Magic]

It must be very freeing and good to know that you can leave this world on your own terms.